The Truth

[gumby03]

In the past while. I've made an enormous mistake. I couldn't stop thinking of myself, and what I wanted. So I'm here to appologise to everyone. I'm sorry for ever being bitchy, for ever cancelling plans, or maybe even simply ignoring you. What I really wanted was someone, and that someone is a waste of my time. I've drawn the line and ever since last night happend I have simply been slapped off of dream world and back into reality. Where I find the people who were always there for me and the people who trully love me and want to be there for me...be with me. My vision of you is so much clearer and I thank God that it is, because now I feel you and everything you've done for me. Right now I am as humble and finaly as down to earth as I can be and finally ready to take on what I've missed. I guess I just hope it's still there.
As for romance I'm gunning it down. I'm so exaughsted from searching or fighting it off that I'm just going to let it happen now. Attepmting to look nice and be someone I'm not just to attract something...is truly a waste of time. I want to be me this time no add ons or cut backs. I'll stop beating anyone down for loving me, I truly don't need space and time, I need slow motion everything about me these days is too fragile to jump into things...I want gradual inclination instead of speed.
So again I'm sorry I let something else get the best of me. I'm not stupid anymore it's back to being the soul me.