love and life and mac and cheese
This weekend was so mixed. So so much so.
Friday was cool because i got to hang with miranda and julian-- eating Rachael Ray is a continuing great time.
Saturday was VERY unique, went to a sweet 16 (pictures available on le MYSPACE) with the ASM crowd. I actually danced, met up with this cool girl named Sarah (we have so much in common, and we get along really well) who i always talked to since May but never REALLY got to know.
That was fun-- ice cream, curly fries, electric slide-- you know the drill. :]
Sunday was interesting, to say the least.
Alex is taking this hard, i mean, its common knowledge and i don't feel weird posting it, I mean.. i didn't know it would be like this.
I'm not sure whats appropriate and what isnt. It just can't work and i really believe that. We aren't in the same place and looking for the same thing and having this pretense just isn't real. I want her to be happy.
I did enjoy hanging out with miranda and the twins and beatriz and alex. Good mashed taters and macaroonie and meat loaf (a little rare).
Talking to Lib afterward was really nice. We had a weird awkward time a long time ago and we never talked about it. It was good to get over it and now just let good times roll without residual awkwarness. I had liked her and she didn't like me and she felt bad because she never just said that she didnt--- bla dee dah. She's so smart, and had alot to say-- she helped.
I cleaned the whole kitchen tonight and i feel mixed on the inside.
I think things can better if you really BELIEVE it will.
And through all of this, i think i finally know myself.
Finally.
Friday was cool because i got to hang with miranda and julian-- eating Rachael Ray is a continuing great time.
Saturday was VERY unique, went to a sweet 16 (pictures available on le MYSPACE) with the ASM crowd. I actually danced, met up with this cool girl named Sarah (we have so much in common, and we get along really well) who i always talked to since May but never REALLY got to know.
That was fun-- ice cream, curly fries, electric slide-- you know the drill. :]
Sunday was interesting, to say the least.
Alex is taking this hard, i mean, its common knowledge and i don't feel weird posting it, I mean.. i didn't know it would be like this.
I'm not sure whats appropriate and what isnt. It just can't work and i really believe that. We aren't in the same place and looking for the same thing and having this pretense just isn't real. I want her to be happy.
I did enjoy hanging out with miranda and the twins and beatriz and alex. Good mashed taters and macaroonie and meat loaf (a little rare).
Talking to Lib afterward was really nice. We had a weird awkward time a long time ago and we never talked about it. It was good to get over it and now just let good times roll without residual awkwarness. I had liked her and she didn't like me and she felt bad because she never just said that she didnt--- bla dee dah. She's so smart, and had alot to say-- she helped.
I cleaned the whole kitchen tonight and i feel mixed on the inside.
I think things can better if you really BELIEVE it will.
And through all of this, i think i finally know myself.
Finally.