When does the panic recede?
It's 8:50pm and I've been at school for 13 hours already. This morning feels like yesterday. I've been in meetings pretty much all day, of course worked during lunch as I shoved a stale lunchable down my throat. And, as I went to finally put my music order in, I was told the account has yet to be officially set up by our business office therefore I have no PO #. If I here the words "PURCHASE ORDER" one more time, I might throw up.
Speaking of throwing up...I think about the first day of school...and feel sick already. So much keeps running through my head...
With the exception that I still feel super behind in all that I'm doing (and not!), I still have insecurity issues as a young teacher and organizer, and severe fears of being the "it" person for so many people. "Petrified" is becoming a classic word for me these days.
I'm surrounded by great people, however, which makes all of this in perspective really not seem so bad. I'm self-absorbed and protective of my time in my office, as it takes me a very long time just to complete a task such as creating my first real syllabus!
There is going to be my life from here on out...and it's truly only just begun...
Just to make myself feel better about what I haven't done, here's a list of what I HAVE done:
+Mirrors up in room...matinence did a GREAT job
+Picked out beginning music for all choirs, decided what to order/what to use
+NEW UNIFORMS [proposal] for the women! Just need to be fitted and ordered
+Scheduled concerts and some fundraisers
+Taken care of all paperwork (OK, I'm getting my fingerprints done tomorrow)
+Already impromptly organized 50/50 raffle at tonight's JV Football game and sang the National Anthem as an extra feature...it was fun. We made $94 :) Every bit counts!!!!!!!
Oh and...my mom brought me flowers today at work :) She had the whole building thinking I already had a secret admirer..ha!
Speaking of throwing up...I think about the first day of school...and feel sick already. So much keeps running through my head...
With the exception that I still feel super behind in all that I'm doing (and not!), I still have insecurity issues as a young teacher and organizer, and severe fears of being the "it" person for so many people. "Petrified" is becoming a classic word for me these days.
I'm surrounded by great people, however, which makes all of this in perspective really not seem so bad. I'm self-absorbed and protective of my time in my office, as it takes me a very long time just to complete a task such as creating my first real syllabus!
There is going to be my life from here on out...and it's truly only just begun...
Just to make myself feel better about what I haven't done, here's a list of what I HAVE done:
+Mirrors up in room...matinence did a GREAT job
+Picked out beginning music for all choirs, decided what to order/what to use
+NEW UNIFORMS [proposal] for the women! Just need to be fitted and ordered
+Scheduled concerts and some fundraisers
+Taken care of all paperwork (OK, I'm getting my fingerprints done tomorrow)
+Already impromptly organized 50/50 raffle at tonight's JV Football game and sang the National Anthem as an extra feature...it was fun. We made $94 :) Every bit counts!!!!!!!
Oh and...my mom brought me flowers today at work :) She had the whole building thinking I already had a secret admirer..ha!