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Dieting sucks.
I've eaten nothing but generally healthy crap for the last few days, not much bread, no pasta...blah blah blah.
For once I'm actually attempting to do something about what I've been insecure about for, oh, the past 5 years. Seriously. 6th grade.
Fucking society.
I've been pretty good about it. I won't let myself eat unhealthy things.
I spoke to Ryder today. :] He sounds so much better. He's still worried about me leaving him, though. He asked if I would wait for him. I guess he's worried because of what happened in my last relationship...the whole Davis thing. But, no, I wouldn't. His hearing is in 8 days and I might be able to go to it.
Today I ate..cereal, cantaloupe, sunflower seeds, crasins, sandwich wrap, rice cakes, yogurt smoothie. No juice. Nothing other than water and some milk for the cereal. And when I got home I had tofu. Yes. Just tofu. I love it, [I don't know why. People think it's disgusting, but once when I was around 5 I ate an entire 16 oz. of plain tofu in one sitting. Seriously.]
That's about a bit over 1,350 calories today.
I am a disgustingly obsessed person. And I don't really care. I'm determined.
I miss Ryder! I MISS HIM. He's okay now. I'm so glad. I can't wait to see him.
The end. I HAVE TO LOOK CUTE TO TURN IN MY APPLICATION ON FRIDAY.
AHHHH IF I GET THIS JOB I WILL BE SO HAPPY.
Chances are I won't. It's worth a try.
I've eaten nothing but generally healthy crap for the last few days, not much bread, no pasta...blah blah blah.
For once I'm actually attempting to do something about what I've been insecure about for, oh, the past 5 years. Seriously. 6th grade.
Fucking society.
I've been pretty good about it. I won't let myself eat unhealthy things.
I spoke to Ryder today. :] He sounds so much better. He's still worried about me leaving him, though. He asked if I would wait for him. I guess he's worried because of what happened in my last relationship...the whole Davis thing. But, no, I wouldn't. His hearing is in 8 days and I might be able to go to it.
Today I ate..cereal, cantaloupe, sunflower seeds, crasins, sandwich wrap, rice cakes, yogurt smoothie. No juice. Nothing other than water and some milk for the cereal. And when I got home I had tofu. Yes. Just tofu. I love it, [I don't know why. People think it's disgusting, but once when I was around 5 I ate an entire 16 oz. of plain tofu in one sitting. Seriously.]
That's about a bit over 1,350 calories today.
I am a disgustingly obsessed person. And I don't really care. I'm determined.
I miss Ryder! I MISS HIM. He's okay now. I'm so glad. I can't wait to see him.
The end. I HAVE TO LOOK CUTE TO TURN IN MY APPLICATION ON FRIDAY.
AHHHH IF I GET THIS JOB I WILL BE SO HAPPY.
Chances are I won't. It's worth a try.