me and a gainer
5am... tuesday morning... far from sleep... I am still up and at my computer... can't go to sleep obviously...
(Ok.. I don't know where that come from but...(me and a gun-tori amos)
I could not find a better main avatar icon. So I picked this old tori
drag one I made two years ago. I had since deleted my journal because
well... I did not have much going on in my life and got truly bored..
its sad when you go to your journal and can't think of anything to
write coz yr life is that mundane)
I am so tired. I need to get some rest and go work out tomorrow morning..... ugggh! side thought.
Talked to my gainer friend and potential *real life*feedee again this nite/morning.
He noticed my profile on the that notorious site called beefyfrat. It was the 16th of july I think.... the next day I gave him my fone number and he has called me nightly ever since. I am not sure if thats a good or bad thing.... I do like sound of his voice as he does mine. The only thing that is that the conversation has seemed to have lost its steam. The first few weeks we chatted up a storm. He was so turned on by my recounting my desire to feed him. He is into verbal (teasing and such) and likes to have a dominant feeder. Knowing this I do feel the pressure is on... as I am not adept at either of those items. This would be his *first experience at being fed* . I could here his heavy breathing all thru the first week. Poor guy was getting so worked up. He couldn't sleep. we talked for hours on end.
He seems so sweet. But now the novelty has seemed to have worn out a bit. There a long pauses on the fone line. I feel like have exhausted every gainer/feedee fantasy I can think of.... feel the repetition is starting..... We have not met yet but he has already talked about potentialy relocating to my area if we hit it off. I hope to go see him in a month when he has time off.
He got hungry and ate 3 cheeseburgers yay! Patted his belly on the fone for me... luv it when he does that. He sounds like the real thing. I have chatted online with so many flaky gainers/feedee wannabees it aint funny. I am tired of the bullshit! So ready to find that that special feedee. I know its what I really want ... just gotta stick my *guns and hope it works out. Hope my friend does not let me down and that we hit it off when we meet.....
arrrrrrg.. I am hungry now.... and sleepy.........
I am so tired. I need to get some rest and go work out tomorrow morning..... ugggh! side thought.
Talked to my gainer friend and potential *real life*feedee again this nite/morning.
He noticed my profile on the that notorious site called beefyfrat. It was the 16th of july I think.... the next day I gave him my fone number and he has called me nightly ever since. I am not sure if thats a good or bad thing.... I do like sound of his voice as he does mine. The only thing that is that the conversation has seemed to have lost its steam. The first few weeks we chatted up a storm. He was so turned on by my recounting my desire to feed him. He is into verbal (teasing and such) and likes to have a dominant feeder. Knowing this I do feel the pressure is on... as I am not adept at either of those items. This would be his *first experience at being fed* . I could here his heavy breathing all thru the first week. Poor guy was getting so worked up. He couldn't sleep. we talked for hours on end.
He seems so sweet. But now the novelty has seemed to have worn out a bit. There a long pauses on the fone line. I feel like have exhausted every gainer/feedee fantasy I can think of.... feel the repetition is starting..... We have not met yet but he has already talked about potentialy relocating to my area if we hit it off. I hope to go see him in a month when he has time off.
He got hungry and ate 3 cheeseburgers yay! Patted his belly on the fone for me... luv it when he does that. He sounds like the real thing. I have chatted online with so many flaky gainers/feedee wannabees it aint funny. I am tired of the bullshit! So ready to find that that special feedee. I know its what I really want ... just gotta stick my *guns and hope it works out. Hope my friend does not let me down and that we hit it off when we meet.....
arrrrrrg.. I am hungry now.... and sleepy.........