i love you papa.... :'(

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hey pplz.... im just sittin it mah aunts house babysitting cause ma grandpas dieing so everyones says lets leave the kids with ashlee of corse... but i want to go c mah grandfater but.... yea... well thats how mah week has been tottally horrible i feel like im traped in a nightmare that i cant get out of.... cancer does kill.....he just so hard loosing someone you have been with all you live who sticks up for you and takes you places and loves you as much as he did... i will never forget my papa.... i <3 him and always will... i just hope my grandma will be ok... cause all she keeps saying is i cant live without him...and were all afraid shess going to do something stupid.... but yea.. .well thats all i have to say... my summer has sucked so bad that its scaring me to DEATH......i have never lost anyone b4......and i think im starting to breakdown and so insane.... cause i havent slept havent ate.. and ahh.. im juist otta it my eyes burn so much from crying my heart out... its horrible... and my grandpa has always wanted a bout and just a couple months ago mah dad bought one for him....i dont think ill ever forget the face he made when we told him we got him a boat... that was his dream was to have a boat....it just kills me to see him suffering in that hospital bed in front of his tv......i get si scared when im around him... i just wanna tell him house much i love him and that i will never forget him....but everytime i got to say it i start bawling... well im done..... ill ttyl luv yaz

to papa, i will always love you!!! and i will never forget the great times we had.... thank you..:'(

<3ashlee