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[guitarmylife]

talking to erica did absolutely nothing. im sure all she did was tell sami all about everything i said which is why she didnt call me back and said she could text me only. probably so she could forward all of it to sami. but whatever. i dont really care about that. erica could tell me the truth about what happened between sami and kipp and she refuses to, which is horribly annoying. i know that what sami told me is a lie because erica would have just told me the same story instead of saying that she cant tell me. so thats really fucked up. im guessing that sami had sex with kipp multiple times or that she cheated on me or that she wanted it and she made the move or some other shit like that.

this update somehow extended on to today. i told albali about how sami and i had sex about a week before i asked albali out. she was really upset with me and i feel like a shit head and i just wish i could take back my mistake but i really cant. i just hope that this doesnt ruin things between us because i really like her and just ugh. i cant believe i did something like that and its hurting our relationship and the trust so badly. and on top of it im confused about life again and it sucks because sami is always gonna be my first love and shell always have that crazy sort of power over me i guess.

so albali doesnt trust me and im trying to fix things and it sucks. ugh. bye.