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Just failed my piano standard and have to repeat the class.
This is after I didn't wake up for my first two classes.
It's not like I don't try. I've been practicing for this thing all week.
And I'm not the type to skip a class for no reason anymore. I simply missed my alarm. Again.
I know this all falls on me but fuck, why does it keep happening?
I'm trying. I really am. And I'm motivated. I want this.
I know I'm cut out for this. I know this is what I'm supposed to do.
But I just can't do it.
I don't care how dramatic it all is. I really just need something different. Something new, and big.
If I'm going to make it here I can't rely on just music and Phi Mu Alpha.
There needs to be something new in my life.
This is after I didn't wake up for my first two classes.
It's not like I don't try. I've been practicing for this thing all week.
And I'm not the type to skip a class for no reason anymore. I simply missed my alarm. Again.
I know this all falls on me but fuck, why does it keep happening?
I'm trying. I really am. And I'm motivated. I want this.
I know I'm cut out for this. I know this is what I'm supposed to do.
But I just can't do it.
I don't care how dramatic it all is. I really just need something different. Something new, and big.
If I'm going to make it here I can't rely on just music and Phi Mu Alpha.
There needs to be something new in my life.