Confusion.
What the heck is going on...
I am feeling icky. Could be the fact that it`s rainy out today.
Combine that with the fact that I feel like I need to talk to a girlfriend...yet many of them aren`t near me currently. My feelings got hurt recently...I almost forgot what that feels like...piece of crap. Did I over-react. Relationships are scarey. Never should I rely on other people to make me feel happy. That is very risky, and will most likely prove to disappoint.
I am working nights for the summer in the shelter at Siloam. It is fine, fairly slack, the pay is better, however my social personality who strives on working with people feels a little squelched, and when I have 2 -3 days off in the middle of the week, most people are at work.
I want to do something of importance, something with substance, something that makes me feel useful and helpful, and like I`m making a difference. I want to create and foster meaningful relationships. I want to create and inspire. I am looking forward to teaching, but I don`t have a teaching job lined up yet.
I want to take hold of the summer and not simply make it through...I don`t know if this will happen.
``We talk a lot, but its always small, tiny breaks that make a giant wall``
I am feeling icky. Could be the fact that it`s rainy out today.
Combine that with the fact that I feel like I need to talk to a girlfriend...yet many of them aren`t near me currently. My feelings got hurt recently...I almost forgot what that feels like...piece of crap. Did I over-react. Relationships are scarey. Never should I rely on other people to make me feel happy. That is very risky, and will most likely prove to disappoint.
I am working nights for the summer in the shelter at Siloam. It is fine, fairly slack, the pay is better, however my social personality who strives on working with people feels a little squelched, and when I have 2 -3 days off in the middle of the week, most people are at work.
I want to do something of importance, something with substance, something that makes me feel useful and helpful, and like I`m making a difference. I want to create and foster meaningful relationships. I want to create and inspire. I am looking forward to teaching, but I don`t have a teaching job lined up yet.
I want to take hold of the summer and not simply make it through...I don`t know if this will happen.
``We talk a lot, but its always small, tiny breaks that make a giant wall``