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Oh Livejournal.
Whenever I remember to check this, it always surprises me how long I actually stayed up with this. This is basically the only journal that I really kept consistently through high school. I'm pretty sure it was having Amanda around on here that kept me accountable... as she would threaten physical harm from time to time were I not to update her on the comings and goings of my life... Miss that!
But, all in all, I'm still really glad I have it.
I never really write here anymore, but, it's awesome to have for when I feel like throwing out a few vague lines that convey nothing but truths only evident to me.
Or when I'm feeling nostalgic like now.
I just got a new job! Finally.. been looking since November.. Was starting to consider the "Hiring all shifts" sign at the Mickey D's in bridgewater.. so.. things were getting desperate. Now I'm gonna be at the Target in Abington, and will hopefully start soon so I can finally pay my past bills :X
It's odd - but - since leaving ENC and breaking up with Joseph, my quality of life has gone WAY up. I don't even need the antidepressants anymore. And I just feel more like myself... or rather, feel like I don't hate myself anymore.
I hate enc... that's something for another entry.. but goodness, that place infects the soul... so fake, so vain. Made some really great friends there, but, there is just something off about the whole place... it's like... somehow home of the sweetest people ever, and yet concurrently home to the most two-faced souls I've ever met.
Ah well , to all you ENC lovers ... I'm glad that you like it. It just wasn't the place for me I guess. I couldn't grow there. Couldn't really breathe there.
Whenever I remember to check this, it always surprises me how long I actually stayed up with this. This is basically the only journal that I really kept consistently through high school. I'm pretty sure it was having Amanda around on here that kept me accountable... as she would threaten physical harm from time to time were I not to update her on the comings and goings of my life... Miss that!
But, all in all, I'm still really glad I have it.
I never really write here anymore, but, it's awesome to have for when I feel like throwing out a few vague lines that convey nothing but truths only evident to me.
Or when I'm feeling nostalgic like now.
I just got a new job! Finally.. been looking since November.. Was starting to consider the "Hiring all shifts" sign at the Mickey D's in bridgewater.. so.. things were getting desperate. Now I'm gonna be at the Target in Abington, and will hopefully start soon so I can finally pay my past bills :X
It's odd - but - since leaving ENC and breaking up with Joseph, my quality of life has gone WAY up. I don't even need the antidepressants anymore. And I just feel more like myself... or rather, feel like I don't hate myself anymore.
I hate enc... that's something for another entry.. but goodness, that place infects the soul... so fake, so vain. Made some really great friends there, but, there is just something off about the whole place... it's like... somehow home of the sweetest people ever, and yet concurrently home to the most two-faced souls I've ever met.
Ah well , to all you ENC lovers ... I'm glad that you like it. It just wasn't the place for me I guess. I couldn't grow there. Couldn't really breathe there.