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They're talking about secrets and I'm dying.
We're talking about love, and I'm trying
To think of anything else -
But what you've taught me, what your love has not bought me.
I am alone, I guess at some point that has to be okay.
God, the bitterness rises til I can't look in their eyes.
If they'd seen what I've seen, if they'd seen them cry.
I say small things, try to portray it to them.
But the truth, I know not how to betray.
What would happen if they knew what you'd shown me?
The words are bleeding out of me
Defying my every held insecurity.
And I can't get these words right.
Nothing portrays the depths to which I've hidden you -
In plain view.
Oh, how I can't breathe here.
Climbing fire escapes to buildings I hate,
Just to be a little farther away.
Just to look down at you for once. Just once.
I swear this isn't what I am. I'd swear.
I'd show you who it is, but you don't have a care.
So for now I'll keep saying it, and you'll keep nodding,
And we'll keep talking about secrets,
That no one will ask.
That no one will tell.
We're talking about love, and I'm trying
To think of anything else -
But what you've taught me, what your love has not bought me.
I am alone, I guess at some point that has to be okay.
God, the bitterness rises til I can't look in their eyes.
If they'd seen what I've seen, if they'd seen them cry.
I say small things, try to portray it to them.
But the truth, I know not how to betray.
What would happen if they knew what you'd shown me?
The words are bleeding out of me
Defying my every held insecurity.
And I can't get these words right.
Nothing portrays the depths to which I've hidden you -
In plain view.
Oh, how I can't breathe here.
Climbing fire escapes to buildings I hate,
Just to be a little farther away.
Just to look down at you for once. Just once.
I swear this isn't what I am. I'd swear.
I'd show you who it is, but you don't have a care.
So for now I'll keep saying it, and you'll keep nodding,
And we'll keep talking about secrets,
That no one will ask.
That no one will tell.