Feb 15, 2006 19:59
Here are some post Valentines thoughts....So over the past weekend I had a guy tell me I was broken. Yes, I have been walked on, cheated on, and lied to. I guess you can say it broke me down a little, however IF i was really into him all that would not have mattered. I feel now that no matter how much you have been hurt in the past it would not matter if you find someone you TRUELY care for. I think that we just use that as a nice way of telling people to back off. I mean we all use it. I just now look at it at a differnt light. You would jump though fire for someone you REALLY cared for, so the least you could do is go out with them right?!? Yes. You all would be really proud of me! =) I am about to stop with the cop out of "i am not ready for a relationship" and tell him I am just not feeling it the way you are. I mean look how much work he is already and we only hung out three times, and we are NOT even dating! I just dont want to deal! I have a lot more knowage of the male mind, I know if i didnt know it already know I am going to be a kick ass girlfriend someday. But I am not going to waste all my knowage and love for someone I dont even like that way. So goodbye by short flings, goodbye to feelings being hurt by the wrong people! In the song "Bless the broken road" it says "God blessed the broken road that lead me stright to you" I think I truely believe in that! We all have traved a broken road but we learn and it sends us in the right direction at some point.
So this is what I've come up with and is all going to be part of the new and slightly improved me! For starters my days of trying to read guys is now over. You should not have to read weather or not someone is into you. If they are THEY will tell you!
No more using my past as an excuess for people in the future. Someday some where weather it be someone I know or have not yet met, SOMEONE will not even make me think of the past! I am not about to let a good one pass me by! EVERYONE feels that way we all know deep down its a bunch of horse poop! You may think your not with someone because your hurting still...but really I just think they were just not the one!
No more leading people on because I dont want to be mean. Being mean is making people think they have a chance but really they dont any more, or never did. I am going to be a stright shooter.
Also one of the last points i am going to make that you cant go out looking for the love of your life! It just happens. You should not have to work for it, push for it, or search for it. Its there or its not. If your hurting we all are there with you. Its part of life. So ending with the song...if you know the song but are not a fan just read the words they are VERY true!!!! =)
Bless The Broken Road"
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.
Quote: There is no mystery- he's gone and he wasn't good enough for you.