24 finds me in 24th place
crazy, how life finds me at this moment in time. I hate posting these blogs. the negatively exhaling ones. the ones that sound like I'm in the depths of despair. I'm not. sometimes I like a negative thought pattern though. I don't think that's a bad thing. maybe it offers balance, a balance that I strive for. there's no easy way to describe how I feel from time to time, without a melancholy heir.
here lately I have found myself in this state. it hit really hard today. I was at work and all of the sudden I felt like this mini anxiety attack. I wanted nothing more than anything to get out of that place, so I clocked out for lunch. I think I broke the speed limit on my bike trying to get to my guitar at home. there I spent the hour playing slightly mellow-dramatic Iron and Wine-ish music.
I really want to find good musicians to play with. I don't want to jam anymore. I want to write, about love, life, hate, accomplishment failure, and whatever else comes along. I want to do that with a guitar, a piano, a simple drum set, and a bass- all playing smoothly with each other, but other than that I don't care if it mellows you out. Those people don't exist here, or at least they haven't realized that they do. Everyone here wants to play one style of music, whatever their favorite is....Aspiring musicians here's a little tip: it sounds do much better when you just let the flower bloom instead of forcing it to look a certain way. I am so over forcing something to happen a certain way, there are few musicians that are given the ability to sit down and write in a certain style, and sadly chances are you aren't one of them. Let the music take control. I know that sounds really hippie-free spirited but it's true, sorry.
So I'm here at blackbird again....yeah, well then again it's Milledgeville.
I just started playing this online game where I build a village and resources and i can trade with or attack other cities, but they can do it to me as well. I know how dorky this sounds, but please build a village and be my friend. We can form an alliance, and help each other out, and leave messages for each other!!!! ome on be a dork with me :-) Haters will be shouting in deaf ears.
Cool well enough here, I'm going to go check on the villagers in Guirett Village. Have a great day.
Amor y paz.
here lately I have found myself in this state. it hit really hard today. I was at work and all of the sudden I felt like this mini anxiety attack. I wanted nothing more than anything to get out of that place, so I clocked out for lunch. I think I broke the speed limit on my bike trying to get to my guitar at home. there I spent the hour playing slightly mellow-dramatic Iron and Wine-ish music.
I really want to find good musicians to play with. I don't want to jam anymore. I want to write, about love, life, hate, accomplishment failure, and whatever else comes along. I want to do that with a guitar, a piano, a simple drum set, and a bass- all playing smoothly with each other, but other than that I don't care if it mellows you out. Those people don't exist here, or at least they haven't realized that they do. Everyone here wants to play one style of music, whatever their favorite is....Aspiring musicians here's a little tip: it sounds do much better when you just let the flower bloom instead of forcing it to look a certain way. I am so over forcing something to happen a certain way, there are few musicians that are given the ability to sit down and write in a certain style, and sadly chances are you aren't one of them. Let the music take control. I know that sounds really hippie-free spirited but it's true, sorry.
So I'm here at blackbird again....yeah, well then again it's Milledgeville.
I just started playing this online game where I build a village and resources and i can trade with or attack other cities, but they can do it to me as well. I know how dorky this sounds, but please build a village and be my friend. We can form an alliance, and help each other out, and leave messages for each other!!!! ome on be a dork with me :-) Haters will be shouting in deaf ears.
Cool well enough here, I'm going to go check on the villagers in Guirett Village. Have a great day.
Amor y paz.