i dont wanna fall to pieces...
wednesday night was the worst, i was supposed to go with bri to dinner for her birthday... i should have just went with her, shes kinda mad at me since i didnt... yesterday i didnt go to school, and i slept alllll day... today i called my mom from work in the middle of 3rd block and she called to dismiss me.. thank god because i dont think i could have made it through the day
ughhh i dont know why i let this all bother me so much, i think its just because everything is changing so fast in all aspects of my life... things are completely different than how they were last year... especially since sophmore year.. things wont ever be the same, but hopefully they will all work out for the better...
its sad to say goodbye... especially when you keep comin back and then having to go through it all over again.. and it sucks that i've been a secret you keep... and it hurts to think that you might have been ashamed... and it sucks to think maybe you dont care... but what sucks the most is that i cant tell myself "someday we might be okay" anymore... because things are too different now. i just wish that when you came back, i didnt get too close to you... because it just makes it harder and harder each time... and i've cried way too many times for this... and i know that you cant truly experience happiness without going through some pain, but its just become too much to the point where i know that its really just not meant to be.
ughhh i dont know why i let this all bother me so much, i think its just because everything is changing so fast in all aspects of my life... things are completely different than how they were last year... especially since sophmore year.. things wont ever be the same, but hopefully they will all work out for the better...
its sad to say goodbye... especially when you keep comin back and then having to go through it all over again.. and it sucks that i've been a secret you keep... and it hurts to think that you might have been ashamed... and it sucks to think maybe you dont care... but what sucks the most is that i cant tell myself "someday we might be okay" anymore... because things are too different now. i just wish that when you came back, i didnt get too close to you... because it just makes it harder and harder each time... and i've cried way too many times for this... and i know that you cant truly experience happiness without going through some pain, but its just become too much to the point where i know that its really just not meant to be.