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I'm bored, at home, with nothing to do, and with no woman, no booze, and nothing to smoke. I had the choice of going out and doing something that I'm trying to stop. I passed up that chance... I'm kind of proud of myself. My recruiter called me today. I'm gonna go down tomorow to see if I qualify for the corps. A lot of my friends are against it but i think it will straighten out my life and give it meaning. I'm doing nothing with my life right now and it's time that I start getting shit done. I feel that I'm on my way back on track, though. So, maybe I wont even end up joining at all. I got a couple of opportunities for a potential girlfriend, but I'm still unsure if I'm going to want to put effort into something like that, because of what happened in my last relationship. It's just like... There's this one girl that is realy sweet and I think she deserves better, the other one is a real hottie but a true temptress at heart who will probably end up feeding on my already mutilated heart by cheating and lying, the other one's a real good friend that I would hate to lose in a conflict resulting from something more happening than our friendship, and the others... are the usual ones that are simply just undesirable to my taste. They're just immature, selfish, materialistic bitches who just push me to the brink of insanity with their mind games. The last thing I need is head-tricks. I'd rather just blow my brains out now and save some time and some pain that would be the result of me hooking up with the average "girl", when what I'm realy looking for is a fucking goddamn woman with some intelligence and compassion for other people and not just for herself. God only knows where I will find that. Til then, I'll just strum the blues on my telecaster like a hopeless romantic, anticipating what crap the higher powers are going to serve up the following day. Bottoms up fellas...