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I still exist, just never seem to get on here any more. It seems like the only times I do is when I'm in a bad mood and need to vent, which sucks.
Work's nuts. Karyl got fired back in December, barely a month after coming back from rehab, so we're down a tech and only God knows when we'll get someone qualified applying for the spot. Dr. Figueriedo FINALLY left in December to go teach with her husband at St. George vet school in the islands. Dr. Cremer's driving me fucknuts crazy butting in when I'm in the middle of trying to teach a student something. I'm kinda conditioned to step aside when someone 'higher ranking' than me takes over, but then she doesn't take over, just derails my train of thought. She's also being bossy and I'm coming very close to snapping at her. To top it all off, Nina's dad died Thursday, so she'll be gone through next Sunday at least. I have been appointed to be her in her absence, which flatters me that she thinks I can do her job. I'm just afraid of how this week is going to turn out. I need at least a week long vacation worse than any time I can think of. I took Nina's saturday on call yesterday, so I'll be doing my 3rd saturday in a row next weekend, plus finding people to take her call next friday and saturday. I just have a horrible feeling of impending doom.
The doll group exploded. Now there's longer-term members of the group sort of doing their own thing in a little group that seems to exclude 'noobs and creepers' which is all well and good but I dunno how to point out to them that at some point we were all noobs and it's the older folks that tend to help people become not-noobs. Now it seems like some friends I love to see are going to be doing stuff with that group but not the old group that's mostly regrouped, and I wanna see people from both groups because I never get to fucking see anyone and...just...GODDAMNIT ALL WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST CHILL THE FUCK OUT, GET ALONG, AND PUT UP WITH EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, it bothers me that much. I had a fucking half-hour long meltdown over it last week and could not stop crying. No, it shouldn't bother me that much, but no it's not just dolls. It's my friends and how I get to see them because despite how I'd love to go to Atlanta every fucking weekend just so I'm not stuck by myself all the fucking time with only the computer and phone to connect me to my friends, I can't and it's not fair that I should always have to go somewhere else. Nobody else seems willing/able/whatever to come fucking visit me when I can have them over. My job won't let me jsut up and do whatever I want whenever I want. Finances won't let me do it! Does anyone have any idea just how much money I spend going to Atlanta and other far-off places to see people?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I have too much to be doing and too many debts to keep this up!
I've got an artist alley table a Momocon again this year. I'm trying to get a fuckton of stuff made and I just keep having great ideas of things to make, but I've gotta start watching myself better. I've spent far too much money on stuff to make things and I'm going to run out of time to get them all made anyways. I want to get tables at more cons this year, but there aren't that many nearby this year and I can't go to many (if any) far off ones between work and money. Mainly work. And my car's crappy gas mileage. And the fact that it's probably gonna fall apart on me one of these days when I least expect it and can least afford it. MORAL OF THIS STORY: come see me at my table, buy some stuff from me, keep me company, or maybe give me a little break so I can actually enjoy a tiny bit of the con this year.
Long story short, I'm stressed, I've been incredibly moody, and damnit I want to get to see my friends without having to spend so much time and money to do so. /end rant
Work's nuts. Karyl got fired back in December, barely a month after coming back from rehab, so we're down a tech and only God knows when we'll get someone qualified applying for the spot. Dr. Figueriedo FINALLY left in December to go teach with her husband at St. George vet school in the islands. Dr. Cremer's driving me fucknuts crazy butting in when I'm in the middle of trying to teach a student something. I'm kinda conditioned to step aside when someone 'higher ranking' than me takes over, but then she doesn't take over, just derails my train of thought. She's also being bossy and I'm coming very close to snapping at her. To top it all off, Nina's dad died Thursday, so she'll be gone through next Sunday at least. I have been appointed to be her in her absence, which flatters me that she thinks I can do her job. I'm just afraid of how this week is going to turn out. I need at least a week long vacation worse than any time I can think of. I took Nina's saturday on call yesterday, so I'll be doing my 3rd saturday in a row next weekend, plus finding people to take her call next friday and saturday. I just have a horrible feeling of impending doom.
The doll group exploded. Now there's longer-term members of the group sort of doing their own thing in a little group that seems to exclude 'noobs and creepers' which is all well and good but I dunno how to point out to them that at some point we were all noobs and it's the older folks that tend to help people become not-noobs. Now it seems like some friends I love to see are going to be doing stuff with that group but not the old group that's mostly regrouped, and I wanna see people from both groups because I never get to fucking see anyone and...just...GODDAMNIT ALL WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST CHILL THE FUCK OUT, GET ALONG, AND PUT UP WITH EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, it bothers me that much. I had a fucking half-hour long meltdown over it last week and could not stop crying. No, it shouldn't bother me that much, but no it's not just dolls. It's my friends and how I get to see them because despite how I'd love to go to Atlanta every fucking weekend just so I'm not stuck by myself all the fucking time with only the computer and phone to connect me to my friends, I can't and it's not fair that I should always have to go somewhere else. Nobody else seems willing/able/whatever to come fucking visit me when I can have them over. My job won't let me jsut up and do whatever I want whenever I want. Finances won't let me do it! Does anyone have any idea just how much money I spend going to Atlanta and other far-off places to see people?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I have too much to be doing and too many debts to keep this up!
I've got an artist alley table a Momocon again this year. I'm trying to get a fuckton of stuff made and I just keep having great ideas of things to make, but I've gotta start watching myself better. I've spent far too much money on stuff to make things and I'm going to run out of time to get them all made anyways. I want to get tables at more cons this year, but there aren't that many nearby this year and I can't go to many (if any) far off ones between work and money. Mainly work. And my car's crappy gas mileage. And the fact that it's probably gonna fall apart on me one of these days when I least expect it and can least afford it. MORAL OF THIS STORY: come see me at my table, buy some stuff from me, keep me company, or maybe give me a little break so I can actually enjoy a tiny bit of the con this year.
Long story short, I'm stressed, I've been incredibly moody, and damnit I want to get to see my friends without having to spend so much time and money to do so. /end rant