I don't know...
I've tried all night to defend for him, to make excuses for him. But...
It just doesn't feel right.
I've tried all night to think positively, to avoid my narrow mind. But...
It still doesn't feel right.
I'm not mad at him. He's always my 2nd favourite (tied with Ueda) in KAT-TUN. But I can't help but feel sad. The timing is so not right. At all. It's their first Asian tour. If they can succeed as 5 people, that's really good, but the feeling is still incomplete because of one missing piece. If they can't, people will start blaming them, and I know for sure Kame will be blamed the most. Who knows when will they have another Asian tour again? Above all of that, he's not with them.
I don't know.... It's such a weird feeling... People can blame us to be selfish. But please come to think of our feeling. If that's not their 1st Asian tour, his leaving wouldn't be a trouble. And the LA concert doesn't help to defend him. He only has 2 days concert there while KAT-TUN tour is 4 months long. He will finish on 20th June, KAT-TUN will start the tour around that time. Why doesn't he come back to them to do the Asian tour but choose to stay in US? That's what makes me unable to defend, to understand his action...
I've tried to tell myself many many times, let's keep the faith, let's believe in KAT-TUN, let's believe in Akame blah blah... but it's just so hard. It would be easier if things would make a bit of sense. But this whole situation just screams ridiculous to me. And the fact that he ignores their 1st Asian tour to stay in US for a POSSIBLE CLUBBING TOUR (which is still not even confirmed) for a freaking 3 months while his bandmates working their asses off to fill the gap he left behind in their 1ST ASIAN TOUR (means, you get or you lose) just makes me feel vulnerable as a fan. Because I can't do anything for them....
*sighs* I don't know.... Yesterday I was planning to go to LA to see Jin's concert because I thought, no matter how things are, he's still the A of KAT-TUN, his success is glued to KAT-TUN's name and fame. But now, when things start to get clear in my head of why I was angry in the first place, for what particular reason.... I feel like crying. I know it's a rare chance for him and at the back of my mind, I am happy for him, but the timing is not right.... I wonder if they had tried to make the timing right, like he asked them to adjust his concert time, would things be better?
It has been decided, we can't do anything to change now can we? But I know KT-TUN will survive this time, just like they had in 2006. I just hope when Jin comes back, he would realize how much KT-TUN have done for him to achieve his dream... Kame dear, please don't overwork yourself and please don't think that you have to take all the weight on your shoulders when one member leaves the group (temporarily). I remember your dream is for the group to go worldwide together, but I guess you will have to wait for next year *sighs*.
Everything will be alright. Goodluck to KT-TUN in Asia and Jin in US.
P/S: After writing down all my thoughts, I feel rather calm right now ^^.
It just doesn't feel right.
I've tried all night to think positively, to avoid my narrow mind. But...
It still doesn't feel right.
I'm not mad at him. He's always my 2nd favourite (tied with Ueda) in KAT-TUN. But I can't help but feel sad. The timing is so not right. At all. It's their first Asian tour. If they can succeed as 5 people, that's really good, but the feeling is still incomplete because of one missing piece. If they can't, people will start blaming them, and I know for sure Kame will be blamed the most. Who knows when will they have another Asian tour again? Above all of that, he's not with them.
I don't know.... It's such a weird feeling... People can blame us to be selfish. But please come to think of our feeling. If that's not their 1st Asian tour, his leaving wouldn't be a trouble. And the LA concert doesn't help to defend him. He only has 2 days concert there while KAT-TUN tour is 4 months long. He will finish on 20th June, KAT-TUN will start the tour around that time. Why doesn't he come back to them to do the Asian tour but choose to stay in US? That's what makes me unable to defend, to understand his action...
I've tried to tell myself many many times, let's keep the faith, let's believe in KAT-TUN, let's believe in Akame blah blah... but it's just so hard. It would be easier if things would make a bit of sense. But this whole situation just screams ridiculous to me. And the fact that he ignores their 1st Asian tour to stay in US for a POSSIBLE CLUBBING TOUR (which is still not even confirmed) for a freaking 3 months while his bandmates working their asses off to fill the gap he left behind in their 1ST ASIAN TOUR (means, you get or you lose) just makes me feel vulnerable as a fan. Because I can't do anything for them....
*sighs* I don't know.... Yesterday I was planning to go to LA to see Jin's concert because I thought, no matter how things are, he's still the A of KAT-TUN, his success is glued to KAT-TUN's name and fame. But now, when things start to get clear in my head of why I was angry in the first place, for what particular reason.... I feel like crying. I know it's a rare chance for him and at the back of my mind, I am happy for him, but the timing is not right.... I wonder if they had tried to make the timing right, like he asked them to adjust his concert time, would things be better?
It has been decided, we can't do anything to change now can we? But I know KT-TUN will survive this time, just like they had in 2006. I just hope when Jin comes back, he would realize how much KT-TUN have done for him to achieve his dream... Kame dear, please don't overwork yourself and please don't think that you have to take all the weight on your shoulders when one member leaves the group (temporarily). I remember your dream is for the group to go worldwide together, but I guess you will have to wait for next year *sighs*.
Everything will be alright. Goodluck to KT-TUN in Asia and Jin in US.
P/S: After writing down all my thoughts, I feel rather calm right now ^^.