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Merry Christmas!
It's amazing how the older I get, the less it feels like Christmas every year, especially this year. I think that even without the accident it still wouldn't really feel like Christmas, my brother isn't here, I'm in a new house once again, it's just weird. It's also strange that I remember what I was doing this exact day one month ago, and one year ago. One month ago was Thanksgiving, and the morning of the accident, one year ago I was with family then went to a movie, Cheaper By The Dozen, then Abby came over and I remember for some reason we went through every CD in my CD collection, which is in the hundreds, then we watched some weird home video, we were so bored. Then I remember going into the game room and laying on the pool table calling Scott and listening to his laugh and just talking about the next few years. Stuff like that makes me miss her, our stupid little talks. I have my good days and bad days, lately more bad than good. It feels like a lot longer than a month that she has been gone, but I am so lucky that her family is amazing, I love you Ellie!! Oh and they also bought Pheebs and myself those Tiffany's teardrop necklaces which I adore so that was wonderful of them. I will just never leave them alone now :)
As far as gifts I had a pretty good Christmas, I got a new purse and a bunch of small stuff, money from family, rims for my car, a new phone, and just a bunch of other things like jewerly and what not. I have yet to exchange gifts with my women yet so that will be exciting because it is a surprise unlike the presents from my parents which they did not hide well enough. Oops.
We went to BAR on Thursday night, being in there just makes me smile. We had so many good times there with Abby, they played all of our songs too, like 4 Snoop songs and both Goodies and Freak A Leek, I think that is a sign! I had a lot of fun though. It was Midnight's birthday so we were gonna hang out with all of them but everyone just ended up splitting up so it was more like Maria, Pheebs, Zanna, Katie, and myself for the most part. The guys were off in their own little world. It was fun though. We went to Pita Pit afterwards, I haven't been there since my birthday, I think it is amazing and we need one in the LC. My grammar is horrible right now.
Anyway I am going to pretend to get along with my family now and go eat some good. Merry Christmas. I love you Abby.
It's amazing how the older I get, the less it feels like Christmas every year, especially this year. I think that even without the accident it still wouldn't really feel like Christmas, my brother isn't here, I'm in a new house once again, it's just weird. It's also strange that I remember what I was doing this exact day one month ago, and one year ago. One month ago was Thanksgiving, and the morning of the accident, one year ago I was with family then went to a movie, Cheaper By The Dozen, then Abby came over and I remember for some reason we went through every CD in my CD collection, which is in the hundreds, then we watched some weird home video, we were so bored. Then I remember going into the game room and laying on the pool table calling Scott and listening to his laugh and just talking about the next few years. Stuff like that makes me miss her, our stupid little talks. I have my good days and bad days, lately more bad than good. It feels like a lot longer than a month that she has been gone, but I am so lucky that her family is amazing, I love you Ellie!! Oh and they also bought Pheebs and myself those Tiffany's teardrop necklaces which I adore so that was wonderful of them. I will just never leave them alone now :)
As far as gifts I had a pretty good Christmas, I got a new purse and a bunch of small stuff, money from family, rims for my car, a new phone, and just a bunch of other things like jewerly and what not. I have yet to exchange gifts with my women yet so that will be exciting because it is a surprise unlike the presents from my parents which they did not hide well enough. Oops.
We went to BAR on Thursday night, being in there just makes me smile. We had so many good times there with Abby, they played all of our songs too, like 4 Snoop songs and both Goodies and Freak A Leek, I think that is a sign! I had a lot of fun though. It was Midnight's birthday so we were gonna hang out with all of them but everyone just ended up splitting up so it was more like Maria, Pheebs, Zanna, Katie, and myself for the most part. The guys were off in their own little world. It was fun though. We went to Pita Pit afterwards, I haven't been there since my birthday, I think it is amazing and we need one in the LC. My grammar is horrible right now.
Anyway I am going to pretend to get along with my family now and go eat some good. Merry Christmas. I love you Abby.