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This past weekend I went to Gainesville with Mike for the night to visit Phoebe. Tiffany and Kim were also there so that was nice to see them. I had a good time for the most part, sometimes it's hard for me to be with all of my friends when I know the person I want to be there the most can't. I hate to update with shit like this but it's the only thing on my mind. I am starting to miss Abby. The person I couldn't go a day without. A few weeks ago we were in my car driving to Lee's house and Abby goes, "not to sound gay but I am happier when I am around you." Of course I responded with, "it's obviously because you're madly in love with me." But I felt the exact same way. I have had some pretty shitty friends in my life, pretty much all of my old best friends. They say you're lucky to have one true friend in your life and I had mine, but it's so sad to me knowing that I can't talk to her or see her again. I went to where the accident happened and talked to her, but I am pretty sure people on the highway driving by probably thought I was some crazy lady talking to herself. Ha. This is just so hard for me, I've never been this sad before. I am normally okay when I am around people but the second I get alone it's all I think about. I keep trying to think of the happy and fun things. I was looking at a picture of the two of us from after seeing Soulplane and I noticed that her lip was purple, from when "hollis elbowed her," but that's okay that that is no where near the truth. Hahaha Damien.
Anyway, I feel a little better now I think it helps me to get it all out because I hate to talk to people about this because then it just makes them upset also and that's not what I want. Oh and Abby would be so proud to know Snoop's record sales are doing pretty good. And Ain't Nothing But a G Thang was one of the 500 greatest songs in Rolling Stone magazine. Amazing.
Phoebe comes in town Wed. and has planned out my Christmas break for me so that is a plus. Ellie we are also going to hunt you down and make us hang out with us so be prepared!
Anyway, I feel a little better now I think it helps me to get it all out because I hate to talk to people about this because then it just makes them upset also and that's not what I want. Oh and Abby would be so proud to know Snoop's record sales are doing pretty good. And Ain't Nothing But a G Thang was one of the 500 greatest songs in Rolling Stone magazine. Amazing.
Phoebe comes in town Wed. and has planned out my Christmas break for me so that is a plus. Ellie we are also going to hunt you down and make us hang out with us so be prepared!