I'm just a notch in your bedpost
"Drink down that gin and kerosene, and come spit on bridges with me. Just to keep us warm, and light a match and leave me be. I keep my jealousy close because it's all mine. If you say this makes you happy then I'm not the only one lying. Keep quiet. Nothing comes as easy as you. Can I lay in your bed all day. I'll be you best kept secret and your biggest mistake. The hand behind this pen reveals a failure everyday. So wear me a locket around your throat. I'll weigh you down, I'll watch you choke. You look so good in blue..."
Everyone seems to be ashamed of me in some way or another, and even if they aren't then it sure does feel like it. I have to hide myself from at least one person when ever I'm with them. The one I like I'm sure is ashamed of me and I knew that getting into it all, but I still chose to take this path. But if only I could make him feel the way I do sitting there when we are out and not being able to kiss him, or touch him. I have to seriously fight myself not to hold him a few more seconds when I get the chance. But I know I can't, and he doesn't seem to mind, well I know he doesn't mind. Or if he could feel the way that I do when I sit there and hear him talk about other girls, god it hurts. But considering the circumstances I don't really have any room to say anything so fuck it! Jesus, I want him so bad....
Now tell me, can you hear my heart breaking? .........I think I'm gonna throw up.
Everyone seems to be ashamed of me in some way or another, and even if they aren't then it sure does feel like it. I have to hide myself from at least one person when ever I'm with them. The one I like I'm sure is ashamed of me and I knew that getting into it all, but I still chose to take this path. But if only I could make him feel the way I do sitting there when we are out and not being able to kiss him, or touch him. I have to seriously fight myself not to hold him a few more seconds when I get the chance. But I know I can't, and he doesn't seem to mind, well I know he doesn't mind. Or if he could feel the way that I do when I sit there and hear him talk about other girls, god it hurts. But considering the circumstances I don't really have any room to say anything so fuck it! Jesus, I want him so bad....
Now tell me, can you hear my heart breaking? .........I think I'm gonna throw up.