forgetting all of the questions we called home
hey look, i am alive.
life is like... too full rn. not too much, bc it's totally cope-able, but just too much in the sense that i never feel like i have time to myself anymore. i feel like life's just sweeping me along and it's not supposed to be like this.
i had this dream.
what a difference a year makes.
and then i start trying again, finally dreaming again, and i keep getting kicked down again. maybe i should just stop, idk. also, it bugs me that i could easily get have a boyfriend in our circle, and i love my boys dearly, and Karl would make an awesome boyfriend, and why can't i just want that?
meh.
i'm lucky, though. i have a roof over my head and a job and more than one fake family to get me through.
but i would still give it all up and more.
you know.
but hey. Monday is over! \o/
but i'm just so sick of losing people
life is like... too full rn. not too much, bc it's totally cope-able, but just too much in the sense that i never feel like i have time to myself anymore. i feel like life's just sweeping me along and it's not supposed to be like this.
i had this dream.
what a difference a year makes.
and then i start trying again, finally dreaming again, and i keep getting kicked down again. maybe i should just stop, idk. also, it bugs me that i could easily get have a boyfriend in our circle, and i love my boys dearly, and Karl would make an awesome boyfriend, and why can't i just want that?
meh.
i'm lucky, though. i have a roof over my head and a job and more than one fake family to get me through.
but i would still give it all up and more.
you know.
but hey. Monday is over! \o/
but i'm just so sick of losing people