25 weeks ago
25 weeks ago I found Facebook. There's been nothing to see here because I got hooked into that light and superficial conversation and update with friends. I tucked my freak side in and settled in to do normal, mundane games and chat with people I hadn't talked to in ages. Many were classmates from the days past and some were people I was pleased to be talking to again. But a piece of me was missing; the piece I get from journaling honestly and sincerely here. Not that light drivel of how life is and cryptic messages in half information so conceal the names but convey some emotion, but a real, honest expression of me. Daily in the new office I walk past a panel that tells me to go confidently in the direction of my dreams and live the life I have imagined. Again and again I have filled it with normality, conformity and wasted time online and off watching TV. No more. So here is where I'm at.
I have a new job. I am now the plant chemist in charge of making sure all the chemicals in and out go according to plan. This sounds easy to me as I am a ChE in a chemist's world and will come up fast here. I am losing weight and exercising like I did in wrestling to make progress to my goal. My kids are growing up and I am not spending enough time doing the great things my father used to do with me. I need to be like him and set aside time to be great and include them in the things I love to do. I am nearly broke and just hanging on. Credit card balances will run out soon and we will have no way to pay the bills. I am working 4 hours a night after the kids go to bed 6 days a week to keep up. I don't have the patience and time, but I need to find an online job doing ESL or something through Skype to get more money into the coffers. I am keeping a promise to my wife to not complain about her here (Love you dear! *ducks*)
I hope you are all well. I am busier than a one legged man at an ass kicking contest.
I have a new job. I am now the plant chemist in charge of making sure all the chemicals in and out go according to plan. This sounds easy to me as I am a ChE in a chemist's world and will come up fast here. I am losing weight and exercising like I did in wrestling to make progress to my goal. My kids are growing up and I am not spending enough time doing the great things my father used to do with me. I need to be like him and set aside time to be great and include them in the things I love to do. I am nearly broke and just hanging on. Credit card balances will run out soon and we will have no way to pay the bills. I am working 4 hours a night after the kids go to bed 6 days a week to keep up. I don't have the patience and time, but I need to find an online job doing ESL or something through Skype to get more money into the coffers. I am keeping a promise to my wife to not complain about her here (Love you dear! *ducks*)
I hope you are all well. I am busier than a one legged man at an ass kicking contest.