Later in the evening
Well all seems much better now. Jesse came home and I asked him if anything happened last night. He promised me nothing did and was shocked (his words) that I would think he would do anything. I can tell when he's attempting to lie to me and no signs were present so I'm relieved. Other than that we talked some more about our issues and he said he really does see how I'm making an effort with my mother and that he appreciates me and all that I have done. We spoke some more about other issues and we are hopeful that our sessions with my therapist will help us. We made love and feel better connected to each other now.
We both know that we have a very rough 6 months ahead of us. The good thing is that we are talking and trying to make changes so that we both feel appreciated and loved. It's funny how communication can really screw things up or make them better. We both feel like we're giving and not receiving back. We realize that it's probably in our delivery system. I show him I love and appreciate him in the ways I know how and he does the same; we're just expecting to see it in another form or the form we're used to.
In other news, my dad stopped by. It was nice. We had some German wine and he met Bailey. She was showing off for him by playing with toy we bought her that until now was un-amusing. She is such a sweet cat and I'm so glad we adopted her from the humane society. My dad liked her too but he kept calling her baxter lol. One of these day's he'll get it. He also helped me bounce some ideas off of him regarding the problems I'm having with my mother. He said I was doing everything right and that we would most likely have to rely on my therapist to help us out with her. She used to do the same things to him when they were married and he did help me see things through a guy's eyes in some of the things I wasn't getting that Jesse was telling me about. I told Jesse what my dad said and he was happy to hear it. He agreed with everything and then agreed with my conclusion that the only way to get through to her would be with professional help since everything I have tried doing in the past just hasn't worked. I mean even being really direct just got bounced off and forgotten.
I have to go to work tomorrow so I'm hoping I get to bed at a decent hour. Other than that I'm surprised I got Memorial Day off! Only thing is I will have to take the conference call from home but that should be ok. It'll be good to get up before 1 p.m. and actually enjoy my day. Now I'm off to sit by my hubby and eat some dark chocolate and pet the cat who is crying for my attention.
We both know that we have a very rough 6 months ahead of us. The good thing is that we are talking and trying to make changes so that we both feel appreciated and loved. It's funny how communication can really screw things up or make them better. We both feel like we're giving and not receiving back. We realize that it's probably in our delivery system. I show him I love and appreciate him in the ways I know how and he does the same; we're just expecting to see it in another form or the form we're used to.
In other news, my dad stopped by. It was nice. We had some German wine and he met Bailey. She was showing off for him by playing with toy we bought her that until now was un-amusing. She is such a sweet cat and I'm so glad we adopted her from the humane society. My dad liked her too but he kept calling her baxter lol. One of these day's he'll get it. He also helped me bounce some ideas off of him regarding the problems I'm having with my mother. He said I was doing everything right and that we would most likely have to rely on my therapist to help us out with her. She used to do the same things to him when they were married and he did help me see things through a guy's eyes in some of the things I wasn't getting that Jesse was telling me about. I told Jesse what my dad said and he was happy to hear it. He agreed with everything and then agreed with my conclusion that the only way to get through to her would be with professional help since everything I have tried doing in the past just hasn't worked. I mean even being really direct just got bounced off and forgotten.
I have to go to work tomorrow so I'm hoping I get to bed at a decent hour. Other than that I'm surprised I got Memorial Day off! Only thing is I will have to take the conference call from home but that should be ok. It'll be good to get up before 1 p.m. and actually enjoy my day. Now I'm off to sit by my hubby and eat some dark chocolate and pet the cat who is crying for my attention.