Nov 28, 2004 10:54
I'm a little annoyed this morning because for two mornings in a row I've inexplicably woken up before 7AM. This does not mean I spring enthusiastically into a desired mode of productivity and chipperness that I so detest in the so-called (degenerate! abnormal!) "morning people."
Nope, it takes me about 3 hours to warm up, except I continue to feel groggy and crappy all day.
This morning I had a nightmare of sorts about winning a scholarship to go save an endangered species of goats in some remote Asian (or Latin American?) country. I did brilliantly in my interview and got the scholarship, except my boyfriend had really wanted this scholarship as well and he hadn't gotten it. But the thing is, he was no longer by boyfriend but an EX boyfriend, with another girlfriend in tow. For some unknown and stupid reason I felt sorry for him and chose as my team him AND his girlfriend, who proceeded to kiss and hold hands in front of me as we were on a plane to save the goats. I remember feeling very, very sad, and wondering why the new girlfriend had to be so plain and unattractive (which she was, in my dream).
I always like it better when my ex-boyfriends end up with someone amazing & beautiful rather than someone mediocre after me. I suppose it's because logically, you should be going for something BETTER after the demise of your last relationship, although in reality this particular brand of logic really does not hold.
Then the dream gets sort of hazy after that...I think we were being chased by some people who did not want to save the goats or something.
I also wonder why 99% of my dreams--the ones I remember anyway--consists of my saving someone or something from danger.
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Oh, yes, I have a place in proper Manhattan for the month of December. Not Brooklyn, not New Jersey, but in Manhattan three blocks from Times Square and Penn Station. I am suuuuuuuuuuuuuuper excited.