OH EM EFFING GRRR
DISCLAIMER: FOLLOWING CONTENT MAY BORE AND/OR ANNOY YOU BECAUSE IT'S JUST ME VENTING ABOUT HOW MUCH MY LIFE SUCKS!
so many things going on in my head right now, so effing confused, upset, angry, sad, probably just about everything. oh where to start where to start.......#1) secret santa for band, $5 gift friday *today* and unlimited next week, well guess what I got?!?!?! a friggin bottle of green tea! okay, #1 on this one, I don't like the cold green tea, #2, I know who had my name, and it was James, and he KNEW that I don't drink green tea cold, only hot, so I have no effing clue why he gave me that, and #3, I SPECIFICALLY told him that I did NOT want anything to drink for my gift, and for the final #4, I'm assuming he forgot to get me anything at all, and just figured, oh I'll get her something out of the vending machine, she won't care...well I do! what is the green tea supposed to imply?!?! well green tea is for weight loss, or curving your appetite or whatever, so I'm like, okay, you know what this is for, and he hit my last nerve...he said: "yeah, you need to loose some weight." I stood there, my mouth literally dropped down...I'm just like...excuse me?!?! so I'm standing there looking at him like who the fuck so you think you are?!?!, and he's like "I figured this would help you get a head start." and he walked away, and I'm just like...WTF....he's lucky he walked away, because I was liable to punch him in the face, that pissed me off. so what, I'm fat now?!?! so anyways, yeah, that's only one of my problems right now...#2)my mom starts bitching at me for no effing reason, because I said my nose was hurting...I'm like hello, it was BROKEN yesterday!!!!!! do you pay ANY attention to me AT ALL?!?!?! so she's really bugging me about that, and then she's like get your homework done, when I already finished it, and I told her that it was already done, and she just stands there and says, well get it done or you can't do anything this weekend....I'm like..did you hear me at all?!?! and then #3) Kayla keeps asking me to go places with her and Ben, well does she seriously think I WANT to be the third weel all the time?!?!?! I mean come on, if you can't go somewhere with your boyfriend without someone else there, then you shouldn't even be dating him! and my aunt called and asked if I wanted to see Rent with her tomorrow *we're going there to have christmas with my grandma* and their theatre actually HAS Rent, but noooo, I have vocal jazz, so I can't go, because I already made a commitment to that, so that ALSO means that I'm stuck going to Narnia with Kayla and Ben! yay >.< omg, someone kill me now!!!!! grrrr!!!!!! there's so much more I could vent about, but I quite frankly don't care anymore! about anything really....I'm just giving up...especially on guys, omg! everytime I like someone, they either end up with a girlfriend a couple of days later, because I'm too shy to ask them out, or they just want to be friends...the latter of which is most common, although they both suck profusely!!! therefore, it's not worth getting trampled on everytime I consider someone, so I'm giving up. that's it, I'm done. I'm serious this time, I'm really giving up. I'm not going to try anymore, if someone likes me, THEY can make the first move....I'm tired of spending my emotions for nothing, and obviously I'm fat now too according to James, and I know I shouldn't care what he thinks because he's an asshole, but I do. I dunno, but I'm seriously sick of certain people telling me that I need to loose weight....and then the others say that I need to stay like I am....it's so effing annoying, and I hate it! and as I said, I'm seriously giving up this time.
I apologize for the extremely long post, but I needed to get that out, and I know that if you're reading this, then you're my friend, and I know you'll be here for me, and I love you for that, so thanks <3
so many things going on in my head right now, so effing confused, upset, angry, sad, probably just about everything. oh where to start where to start.......#1) secret santa for band, $5 gift friday *today* and unlimited next week, well guess what I got?!?!?! a friggin bottle of green tea! okay, #1 on this one, I don't like the cold green tea, #2, I know who had my name, and it was James, and he KNEW that I don't drink green tea cold, only hot, so I have no effing clue why he gave me that, and #3, I SPECIFICALLY told him that I did NOT want anything to drink for my gift, and for the final #4, I'm assuming he forgot to get me anything at all, and just figured, oh I'll get her something out of the vending machine, she won't care...well I do! what is the green tea supposed to imply?!?! well green tea is for weight loss, or curving your appetite or whatever, so I'm like, okay, you know what this is for, and he hit my last nerve...he said: "yeah, you need to loose some weight." I stood there, my mouth literally dropped down...I'm just like...excuse me?!?! so I'm standing there looking at him like who the fuck so you think you are?!?!, and he's like "I figured this would help you get a head start." and he walked away, and I'm just like...WTF....he's lucky he walked away, because I was liable to punch him in the face, that pissed me off. so what, I'm fat now?!?! so anyways, yeah, that's only one of my problems right now...#2)my mom starts bitching at me for no effing reason, because I said my nose was hurting...I'm like hello, it was BROKEN yesterday!!!!!! do you pay ANY attention to me AT ALL?!?!?! so she's really bugging me about that, and then she's like get your homework done, when I already finished it, and I told her that it was already done, and she just stands there and says, well get it done or you can't do anything this weekend....I'm like..did you hear me at all?!?! and then #3) Kayla keeps asking me to go places with her and Ben, well does she seriously think I WANT to be the third weel all the time?!?!?! I mean come on, if you can't go somewhere with your boyfriend without someone else there, then you shouldn't even be dating him! and my aunt called and asked if I wanted to see Rent with her tomorrow *we're going there to have christmas with my grandma* and their theatre actually HAS Rent, but noooo, I have vocal jazz, so I can't go, because I already made a commitment to that, so that ALSO means that I'm stuck going to Narnia with Kayla and Ben! yay >.< omg, someone kill me now!!!!! grrrr!!!!!! there's so much more I could vent about, but I quite frankly don't care anymore! about anything really....I'm just giving up...especially on guys, omg! everytime I like someone, they either end up with a girlfriend a couple of days later, because I'm too shy to ask them out, or they just want to be friends...the latter of which is most common, although they both suck profusely!!! therefore, it's not worth getting trampled on everytime I consider someone, so I'm giving up. that's it, I'm done. I'm serious this time, I'm really giving up. I'm not going to try anymore, if someone likes me, THEY can make the first move....I'm tired of spending my emotions for nothing, and obviously I'm fat now too according to James, and I know I shouldn't care what he thinks because he's an asshole, but I do. I dunno, but I'm seriously sick of certain people telling me that I need to loose weight....and then the others say that I need to stay like I am....it's so effing annoying, and I hate it! and as I said, I'm seriously giving up this time.
I apologize for the extremely long post, but I needed to get that out, and I know that if you're reading this, then you're my friend, and I know you'll be here for me, and I love you for that, so thanks <3