ITS MY BIRTHDAY
yes! today is m 19th birthday and i started the night out right. puking up rice and steak at some guys house outside.LOL ok it was like 11:00 and i went and got some skittles because Deija and Frank were gonna meet me at Deija's and we were gonna go back to the party so i ate real quick. steak, rice & beans. it was sooo good. but the pills atarted kickin in when i got there and i needed to puke instantly but i couldnt... so i kept thing about really disgusting stuff like Karim fuckin some friend and then coming back to me to have sex. that makes me sick when i think about it so that done the trick. i feel like a lil weakling when i think about that. like it takes all my will power away. i cant stand to think about that. he broke my heart. i am still so hung up on him but i havent called him in... this makes the third day and im not going to. i wanted him for my birthday but since he told me that i dont want shit to do with him. at all. yeah im sad about it and i miss him like crazy but he did me wrong. i cant go back. im gonna stay single for a long time. ive had it with men. im fed up. i'm too damn picky to be lookin for another man any ways. it takes too long and its too hard to find what meets my standards.. omg JET is here he is this really cute lil black puppy. we were chillin outside and Prentiss and Jay drove up on street bikes. it was hott but JET is Jay's puppy. i cant remember what kinda dog it is but it stays little forever. well not FOREVER,nothing is forever. But until it dies. i cant sleep. i took skittles and i have like insomnia i guess. i would like to go to sleep but i just cant. i tried for like 2 hours. i dunno. brittany if you read this reply back to me and tell me how you are doing. i miss ya nig.