Well on the bright side i have my slice of pumpkin pie...............
So today at school sucked, I felt like such a fool since it turns out the majority of my friends knew about what was going on and didn't tell me, that definetely hurt, and me and cami got in a huge fight about it during break today, so not only did I already lose what somewhat remained of a relationship, i also almost lost another one on account of it. I'm a little more calmed down right now, but it's starting to piss me off, everyone's trying to dictate how I should react to this, some people saying just to totally say fuck it and even end the friendship, but that's not what I want, and it's really hard. I just want everyone to leave me alone about it so I can try and forget it, but it's hard when everyone is talking to me about it and pretty much saying "I told you so" (of course in a trying to be caring sort of way) : / So aside from that it was really cool, my day was crappy aside from that, My mom is a stupid whore who called mr.cooley and told him that one of my absences was forged and she didn't excuse it so I might lose credit for english now, how awesome is that? yeah fucking horrible, she did it just because we've been fighting too, i was like wow you are horrible, when I got home today my mom was a bitch about it too, i was like wow you got me in so much trouble and she was like good, you deserve it, and i was like do you not realize i might lose credit for this and she was like good, you should! i was like wow way to be horrible mom. Then there was cherleading, eh pretty mcuh pointless today, we just talked for like an hour, and it sucks, im missing my volleyball banquet because we have cheer camp from 5-8 pm on friday and laurie said i'll have to miss my banquet, which is such bullshit, but oh well.... i dont know, I just can't wait for this week to be over, it's been really bad. I'm hoping my birthday turns out to be really fun, but we'll see, I don't even like wanna have a birthday, it's just going to be a disappointment like everything else and I don't think I could handle that too.. okay well i'm not in a good modd so im gonna go...bleh