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ahah I have't updated for the whole month of november so far, aren't I awesome? haha well there have only been almost 10 days in it so far, but im still awesome lol. I've been so busy lately I haven't actually had time to function. There was haloween and what not and then after that I was just so busy with school and volleyball, one of which is now over and sadly that is not school... but yeah volleyball, it ended this past saturday at districts, we almost went to state, and that would have been pretty cool, but oh well there's always next year, besides, next year we're going to be fucking amazing ahaha! Aside from that there have been all the nice normal little stresses in my life, ah yeah and my birthday is in less than 2 weeks, I have totally started my countdown and am soooo pumped up, it's my 16th so im hoping it'll be cool, my birthdays seem to suck these past fw years cause they always go by unnoticed and what not, it's kinda depressing, and to make matters worse this year my birthday is on the first day of finals, and not to mention they are my most un-looked-forward-to finals, english and spanish, where the teachers both despise me, but oh well maybe ill get some bday sympathy(doubtful)... on the bright side, awesome birthdayparty coming up, except who knows if that will actually go down, since sarah's parents aren't into it being there anymore, so we're left with an amazing plan and theme and nowhere to have it, and the theme wouldn't work too well outside, pimps and hos in this weather=not okay! So I hope all that works out. I thought once volleyball ended I would be unstressed..yeah I was wrong, I have cheerleading tryouts after school til 5:30 all this week, well actually tomorrow is MY last day because I'm going to bellingham on thursday and I'm recording my tryouts on video, so I hope I do okay on that, I'm kinda scared that it'll get a harsher critique since the judges will only be able to see meeeee... aaa but not only that I have club volleyball tryouts on sunday for Club Wahine and I'm really pumped up for that, i mean I'm kinda scared, not really of not making a team but more of making a bad team, I really wanna make a nationals team even though the cost is $3,500+ per season, but it's worth it, you get so much more experience, I'd be fine with a regional team though too, so we'll see, i'm just perma-busy for the rest of this year I guess then too lol... maybe that'll calm down soon. Aside from all that stuff is going okay I guess, i've been really emotionally not okay lately, I think this weather changes my mood quite a bit, but then again i am easily upset too, it's really hard though, I hate it when I'm unhappy, but I am unhappy the majority of the time or the littlest thing changes my mood for the worse and being stressed doesn't help, and the fact that I';ve been really sick lately, I get sick with soemthing, then it goes away then like 2 days later i get sick with something else, for districts I was sick out of my mind and had to take double-doses of dayquill to stay alive for the tournament, I went there with a 101 degree fever and migraine and such a sore throat i couldnt swallow but i managed okay, well actually pretty damn well actually.. well aside from all my bitching and stuff, other stuff is goingokay though I guess, there's been way too much drama lately, it just amkes me kinda bottle up everything im feeling because i dont want drama of my own, but im thinking that's unhealthy and maybe I need to just start speaking my mind on stuff and get it all out, regardless of the drama it may cause...bleh anyways, I should probably be heading off since i dont ahve much else to write.