duh
sometimes i cant help but hate being a girl, we're just so freaking emotional...
i should know by now not to ever EVER get my hopes up for any boy. You would think that with all of the junk i've been through just within the past year that i would have learned this lesson...apparently not. I got my hopes up about a boy up here and of course it ended in disappointment, it always does. I've recently been on this spritually strong woman kick. I've been confident, strong and glowing. Its been wonderful and now well, i dont so much feel that way. Its hard to take blow after blow. After months and months of people telling me "you are such an amazing and beautiful person inside and out" I had finally started to believe a portion of it and i wont lie, it was nice. However, i just feel silly because now i've let one more boy disvalue that in my eyes. I cant help but ask myself "why not me?, whats wrong with me?". This question is so distructive to women because it implies that there is something wrong with us from the get-go, we just have to figure out what it is. I hate that and yet i cant seem to believe differently. I feel stupid for getting by hopes up and actually letting myself be happy about something like that.
gee i feel really really stupid
i dont like it.
i should know by now not to ever EVER get my hopes up for any boy. You would think that with all of the junk i've been through just within the past year that i would have learned this lesson...apparently not. I got my hopes up about a boy up here and of course it ended in disappointment, it always does. I've recently been on this spritually strong woman kick. I've been confident, strong and glowing. Its been wonderful and now well, i dont so much feel that way. Its hard to take blow after blow. After months and months of people telling me "you are such an amazing and beautiful person inside and out" I had finally started to believe a portion of it and i wont lie, it was nice. However, i just feel silly because now i've let one more boy disvalue that in my eyes. I cant help but ask myself "why not me?, whats wrong with me?". This question is so distructive to women because it implies that there is something wrong with us from the get-go, we just have to figure out what it is. I hate that and yet i cant seem to believe differently. I feel stupid for getting by hopes up and actually letting myself be happy about something like that.
gee i feel really really stupid
i dont like it.