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so i'm now back up at school....boo.
everywhere i look is covered in sorority stuff. Its just like they try to rub it in even more, i hate it. I hate the fact that i didnt work hard enough last semester. I know its my own fault and thats what kills me. Also the fact that there is absolutely nothing i can do until a year from now is just another punch in the gut. I'm trying so hard to find the possible good but its just so hard...
i hate this.
however, i just found out that my phone is jackies car so at least thats one less thing to worry about. However, the problem is that i'm in waco...jackie's back in SA...
Despite all of this i know that God has a plan and its about what he wants, not what i want. Aaron talked about that today and i know that when it comes to being selfish in terms of my will vs God's will i'm one of the worst. Its just so hard when things seem to be working out perfectly for everyone around you and you end up with the short end of the stick. I know that God has the big picture and that through his eyes all of this makes sense but right now i cant help but kind of think he's either a)crazy or b) just forgotten about me. I know that neither of these are the case because i dont believe that God makes mistakes but geez its hard to really stick to that when things just seem to kind of fall apart before you.
oy.
everywhere i look is covered in sorority stuff. Its just like they try to rub it in even more, i hate it. I hate the fact that i didnt work hard enough last semester. I know its my own fault and thats what kills me. Also the fact that there is absolutely nothing i can do until a year from now is just another punch in the gut. I'm trying so hard to find the possible good but its just so hard...
i hate this.
however, i just found out that my phone is jackies car so at least thats one less thing to worry about. However, the problem is that i'm in waco...jackie's back in SA...
Despite all of this i know that God has a plan and its about what he wants, not what i want. Aaron talked about that today and i know that when it comes to being selfish in terms of my will vs God's will i'm one of the worst. Its just so hard when things seem to be working out perfectly for everyone around you and you end up with the short end of the stick. I know that God has the big picture and that through his eyes all of this makes sense but right now i cant help but kind of think he's either a)crazy or b) just forgotten about me. I know that neither of these are the case because i dont believe that God makes mistakes but geez its hard to really stick to that when things just seem to kind of fall apart before you.
oy.