"let me take a ride hurt yourself want some more help myself..."

[guavajuice]

im homesick. i really dislike being here. even if pats here with me, i really dislike it. and lucky him, he gets to leave on friday while i have another week after that. what im going to do i have no idea.

i have alot on my mind and i wish i could discuss it. i need opinions.

and by the way, im just waiting. not upset in the least bit.

forgotten peice of loneliness
wasted
the wistful thoughts upon the air
i still taste it
waiting for love
to rain from his shove
away, away, away
attempting to hold up the sky
as it falls in pieces upwards
into those lovely stars
if only it were possible to hold on
to feel perfection weigh
upon your eyelids
always hidden in dreamlike haze
always aluding your gaze
but you await impossibilities
nothing less
striving to be colorblind
nothing more

and i miss dylan. i really do.