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Ughhhhhh...
So I was in starbucks. Which is everyday by the way. Well anyway I mentioned to Sam's friend Zee that I think the photography in there was really mediocre and that anyone with a shutter could have taken those photos. And that I thought I could do better. (am I cocky? OR WHAT!?!!) Well she asked me if I wanted to post my photography in there and I said sure.
I signed up for July.
My photography is going to be public.
3-4 Prints. Mounted. Maybe Framed.
(so nervous!!!)
Okay so normally I am totally happy with Sam and nothing really bothers me that just isnt petty nonsense.
But I miss feeling the giddy dating stuff.
I want to hold his hand under the table and cuddle at movies and wonder if he's going to kiss me at the end of the night...
But I know it all. It's all expected. I hate that. It's why I didn't do long term before Sam. Because it becomes predictable. I wont ever kiss anyone else ever again. I'll never have to worry if someone is a bad kisser, because I know I'm with a good one. It's so wierd. I wonder if I'm going to get where I miss being single. I don't think I will, I like living with Sam too much. But it's certainly wierd to wonder...
Ugh I'm just rambling because I'm bored and home alone.
So I was in starbucks. Which is everyday by the way. Well anyway I mentioned to Sam's friend Zee that I think the photography in there was really mediocre and that anyone with a shutter could have taken those photos. And that I thought I could do better. (am I cocky? OR WHAT!?!!) Well she asked me if I wanted to post my photography in there and I said sure.
I signed up for July.
My photography is going to be public.
3-4 Prints. Mounted. Maybe Framed.
(so nervous!!!)
Okay so normally I am totally happy with Sam and nothing really bothers me that just isnt petty nonsense.
But I miss feeling the giddy dating stuff.
I want to hold his hand under the table and cuddle at movies and wonder if he's going to kiss me at the end of the night...
But I know it all. It's all expected. I hate that. It's why I didn't do long term before Sam. Because it becomes predictable. I wont ever kiss anyone else ever again. I'll never have to worry if someone is a bad kisser, because I know I'm with a good one. It's so wierd. I wonder if I'm going to get where I miss being single. I don't think I will, I like living with Sam too much. But it's certainly wierd to wonder...
Ugh I'm just rambling because I'm bored and home alone.