updating the old school.
so, hello old friend, it's been a very very long time. i'm a grown up now, and have finally moved out of my overtly emotional, hello i'm in love with every man i meet stage.
i'm almost 100% sure that none of my old friends will read this anymore, so i suppose i can say whatever i feel.
lets start with a few updates.
collge were the best two years of my life, i think i learned a lot about myself and the world in general, and i think i'm a much more well rounded person as a result of the people i met, the things i learnt, and the experiences i had.
i had a long relationship with a lovely man, Dillon. i suppose looking back it was my first real life relationship, and reading back about all the drama's about dave i think meeting somebody who was genuinely nice grounded me and helped me get a grip of myself.
unfortunately that ended about a year ago, i guess we just grew apart and went our seperate ways. i'm now at uni and have moved out and have my own house with the most amazing people in the entire world. i'm also a student social worker. i think that that is something that i do have Dave to thank for. i feel like on the surface of things he was all wrong, the worst type of person, but i always felt like i saw something better in him. he never got a second chance and i want to make sure that other young people don't fall into the same trap of once you've made a mistake you can't go back.
i suppose i'm at a time in my life when most things are sorted, but it's still hard. i still don't think i know who i am, and still suffer the occasional bout of depression, but i think it's all par for the course really.
i guess i just try to focus on the good things and not let it all drag me down...
life is too worth living to spend it moping and worrying about the things you can't change.
i think thats all i can do for now.
i never understood why i found it easier to confide in the blank screen of a computer than in my friends, or a real diary, but i think the old addiction is still here.
maybe i'll keep this up for a while, but don't bank on it.
xxx
i'm almost 100% sure that none of my old friends will read this anymore, so i suppose i can say whatever i feel.
lets start with a few updates.
collge were the best two years of my life, i think i learned a lot about myself and the world in general, and i think i'm a much more well rounded person as a result of the people i met, the things i learnt, and the experiences i had.
i had a long relationship with a lovely man, Dillon. i suppose looking back it was my first real life relationship, and reading back about all the drama's about dave i think meeting somebody who was genuinely nice grounded me and helped me get a grip of myself.
unfortunately that ended about a year ago, i guess we just grew apart and went our seperate ways. i'm now at uni and have moved out and have my own house with the most amazing people in the entire world. i'm also a student social worker. i think that that is something that i do have Dave to thank for. i feel like on the surface of things he was all wrong, the worst type of person, but i always felt like i saw something better in him. he never got a second chance and i want to make sure that other young people don't fall into the same trap of once you've made a mistake you can't go back.
i suppose i'm at a time in my life when most things are sorted, but it's still hard. i still don't think i know who i am, and still suffer the occasional bout of depression, but i think it's all par for the course really.
i guess i just try to focus on the good things and not let it all drag me down...
life is too worth living to spend it moping and worrying about the things you can't change.
i think thats all i can do for now.
i never understood why i found it easier to confide in the blank screen of a computer than in my friends, or a real diary, but i think the old addiction is still here.
maybe i'll keep this up for a while, but don't bank on it.
xxx