[25] Socializing...?
Hm, student elections... I am not knowledgeable in the area of politics, but I do hope students will not do anything dangerous. Oh, here I go with my pessimistic thoughts...
... I have spent some time looking over my old entries, and I am quite amused of how little I write on the electronic journal now. I figured all the staff and students in the school have a journal handy, but I do not wish to read their thoughts, whether they do or do not mind. I am also quite embarrassed to see so many quarrels between Ho-oh and myself on these entries...
Last week, I have given a chance to finally spend some peaceful time in my apartment. It was fairly quiet but somewhat lonely.
I am not sure how to bring this up, but it seems that there are quite a lot of Legendary Pokemon in the school now. I do know (from experience) that legendaries prefer to stay in solitude, but I am quite curious to speak to everyone at one point. If no one does not mind, perhaps we can meet up for a gathering this coming weekend to socialize? Idealistically, I would prefer to go to a cafe for a nice cup of tea while conversing, but if there is something else the others would like to do, I can reconsider. Either way, this will be my treat, since I am the one who had brought this up.
((Strikeouts deleted))
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Ho-oh had left for the rest this week to sell his artworks. It is still far beyond my understanding of why and how paintings get priced, but I am not in the world Ho-oh lives in so it cannot be helped. This leads to confusion of how us two, completely different people would end up as a couple at one point. My youthful mind had been so careless then. I have thought I had learned from when I had let my anger take control of my powers and destroy the city of my very first friend... And yet I had let myself fall in love. My foolishness--that love was betrayed, and I had ended up almost flooding a town.
Living together with him brought back the memories of when everything seemed alright. It was a very pleasant feeling, but at the same time it has made me even more worried about the situation I am in. I do not want to go through the pain again. I am afraid of the same thing happening again. What he has told me a few months ago and how he has been acting is tempting to trust him once more. But I do not want to fall into the trap of giving him "second" chances one after another, saying that it will be the last. This is sounding a lot like a drug abuse. I do not want my life to become a routine of emotions.
...At times I come close to regretting that I have decided to come up to land. One part of myself wishes to lead a happy life with him while the other protests against it, claiming that nothing good will come out of the decision. The two sides clash in my mind, going in circles. I am still lost of what I should do.
Looking back at my old entries here, I realize that at one point I had almost given him a second chance. All I have written before is the same as now. Perhaps it is really time for me to move on, or at least make a decision. If he does end up betraying once again, I shall take a permanent leave and return to the sea. I was not thinking clearly when I left, thus deciding to return once more. I am already risking my principles by trusting him once more. If he proves me wrong once more, there is nothing to lose.
I am never going to become accustomed to his habit of being so touchy. Why must he be so barbaric in this relationship? And yet I cannot fight back when he gets the upper hand. It is quite embarrassing to be in my position....slkafjslkjs What am I writing
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... I have spent some time looking over my old entries, and I am quite amused of how little I write on the electronic journal now. I figured all the staff and students in the school have a journal handy, but I do not wish to read their thoughts, whether they do or do not mind. I am also quite embarrassed to see so many quarrels between Ho-oh and myself on these entries...
Last week, I have given a chance to finally spend some peaceful time in my apartment. It was fairly quiet but somewhat lonely.
I am not sure how to bring this up, but it seems that there are quite a lot of Legendary Pokemon in the school now. I do know (from experience) that legendaries prefer to stay in solitude, but I am quite curious to speak to everyone at one point. If no one does not mind, perhaps we can meet up for a gathering this coming weekend to socialize? Idealistically, I would prefer to go to a cafe for a nice cup of tea while conversing, but if there is something else the others would like to do, I can reconsider. Either way, this will be my treat, since I am the one who had brought this up.
((Strikeouts deleted))
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Ho-oh had left for the rest this week to sell his artworks. It is still far beyond my understanding of why and how paintings get priced, but I am not in the world Ho-oh lives in so it cannot be helped. This leads to confusion of how us two, completely different people would end up as a couple at one point. My youthful mind had been so careless then. I have thought I had learned from when I had let my anger take control of my powers and destroy the city of my very first friend... And yet I had let myself fall in love. My foolishness--that love was betrayed, and I had ended up almost flooding a town.
Living together with him brought back the memories of when everything seemed alright. It was a very pleasant feeling, but at the same time it has made me even more worried about the situation I am in. I do not want to go through the pain again. I am afraid of the same thing happening again. What he has told me a few months ago and how he has been acting is tempting to trust him once more. But I do not want to fall into the trap of giving him "second" chances one after another, saying that it will be the last. This is sounding a lot like a drug abuse. I do not want my life to become a routine of emotions.
...At times I come close to regretting that I have decided to come up to land. One part of myself wishes to lead a happy life with him while the other protests against it, claiming that nothing good will come out of the decision. The two sides clash in my mind, going in circles. I am still lost of what I should do.
Looking back at my old entries here, I realize that at one point I had almost given him a second chance. All I have written before is the same as now. Perhaps it is really time for me to move on, or at least make a decision. If he does end up betraying once again, I shall take a permanent leave and return to the sea. I was not thinking clearly when I left, thus deciding to return once more. I am already risking my principles by trusting him once more. If he proves me wrong once more, there is nothing to lose.
I am never going to become accustomed to his habit of being so touchy. Why must he be so barbaric in this relationship? And yet I cannot fight back when he gets the upper hand. It is quite embarrassing to be in my position....slkafjslkjs What am I writing
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