[20] Troubles
((Backdated to late night of the 14th 8U;;;))
Confusion is the best word to describe my mood. In normal situations I do not wish to be involved with any sort of fighting...but with the entire city in danger, I believe I cannot just sit back when I could possibly be of some assistance. Miss Lash seems very energetic about this whole situation... I do hope nothing out of hand will happen No use in wishing for that after getting a glimpse of what the enemy can do. Perhaps the only wish is for my emotions to not take the better of me.
Ah, my entries should not be so gloomy and depressing all the time, especially during a time like this. On a brighter note, my favorite cafe--what was the name, it keeps on slipping my mind--in the city has released a new cake! It was the reason for the most part of me not being around on campus today. I had been in line from five in the morning, but it was worth the wait! It goes nicely with tea, I must say. Unfortunately, the cakes are of a "limited edition" or so they call it, and will not be available for the entire year. Quite understandable, with so many exotic fruits mounted on top of the slice!
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I have received quite a pleasant gift for this Valentine's holiday event. Such a large chocolate piece! That had made me form a small smile, seeing so much chocolate in one piece. Although I am not quite fond of having flowers in the room, having a little yellow and red in the room is rather refreshing. Quite unfortunate to have the flowers to be placed very close to the window. The friendship bracelet is quite fascinating too; I am already wearing it as I write this. The shade of blue is quite pleasant! It matches well with my wardrobe. Whoever had sent these are quite thoughtful of my horrible sneezing habits, although I can quite guess who had sent me the chocolate piece and the card. It is still quite unnerving to know that he is still feeling in this particular way towards me. I do admit, I am feeling slightly the same back, but I do think it would be the best for both of us to stay as friends. The last few occasions I had spent with him were quite pleasant, but the fear keeps coming back every time I part with him. It does get extremely wearisome when that certain memory of when I had consumed alcohol keeps reviving.
Perhaps I am pondering a little too much regarding this issue. But with how bleak the news of that poor city, I believe, that has been completely destroyed to ruins, I cannot get myself to think cheerfully and even pick up my ocarina. A month of no practice had made me lose the little skills I had acquired for the couple months of last year.
Quite funny how I am continuing to write about my daily life when something dreadful is possibly approaching this city. I have always had trouble picturing how things will actually be until I see the cause first-hand, which in this case the force that had obliterated. The pictures that I have seen on the blue hedgehog's journal did give a good idea of how much power this army holds, but I cannot help but be reminded of the incident I had caused a city to be submerged into the ocean. The army as a whole possibly has greater strength than myself. If I do want to survive, I will have to use my full force. My only worry is whether I have enough skills to fully control my own powers.
Confusion is the best word to describe my mood. In normal situations I do not wish to be involved with any sort of fighting...but with the entire city in danger, I believe I cannot just sit back when I could possibly be of some assistance. Miss Lash seems very energetic about this whole situation... I do hope nothing out of hand will happen No use in wishing for that after getting a glimpse of what the enemy can do. Perhaps the only wish is for my emotions to not take the better of me.
Ah, my entries should not be so gloomy and depressing all the time, especially during a time like this. On a brighter note, my favorite cafe--what was the name, it keeps on slipping my mind--in the city has released a new cake! It was the reason for the most part of me not being around on campus today. I had been in line from five in the morning, but it was worth the wait! It goes nicely with tea, I must say. Unfortunately, the cakes are of a "limited edition" or so they call it, and will not be available for the entire year. Quite understandable, with so many exotic fruits mounted on top of the slice!
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I have received quite a pleasant gift for this Valentine's holiday event. Such a large chocolate piece! That had made me form a small smile, seeing so much chocolate in one piece. Although I am not quite fond of having flowers in the room, having a little yellow and red in the room is rather refreshing. Quite unfortunate to have the flowers to be placed very close to the window. The friendship bracelet is quite fascinating too; I am already wearing it as I write this. The shade of blue is quite pleasant! It matches well with my wardrobe. Whoever had sent these are quite thoughtful of my horrible sneezing habits, although I can quite guess who had sent me the chocolate piece and the card. It is still quite unnerving to know that he is still feeling in this particular way towards me. I do admit, I am feeling slightly the same back, but I do think it would be the best for both of us to stay as friends. The last few occasions I had spent with him were quite pleasant, but the fear keeps coming back every time I part with him. It does get extremely wearisome when that certain memory of when I had consumed alcohol keeps reviving.
Perhaps I am pondering a little too much regarding this issue. But with how bleak the news of that poor city, I believe, that has been completely destroyed to ruins, I cannot get myself to think cheerfully and even pick up my ocarina. A month of no practice had made me lose the little skills I had acquired for the couple months of last year.
Quite funny how I am continuing to write about my daily life when something dreadful is possibly approaching this city. I have always had trouble picturing how things will actually be until I see the cause first-hand, which in this case the force that had obliterated. The pictures that I have seen on the blue hedgehog's journal did give a good idea of how much power this army holds, but I cannot help but be reminded of the incident I had caused a city to be submerged into the ocean. The army as a whole possibly has greater strength than myself. If I do want to survive, I will have to use my full force. My only worry is whether I have enough skills to fully control my own powers.