THA FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!
I have this really bad feeling deep down inside of me thats making me want to bust out crying...but I don't know what its from or why I have it. I think I hurt Erika's feelings tonight b/c of it...I acted like a jerk when we hung up, but I didn't mean to. God I really hope I'm not scaring her off by the way I act sometimes, I wish I really knew what tha fuck was wrong with me, but I have no clue.....I think I'ma just go to sleep and get up when its a NEW DAY!!!! Erika, I'm sorry baby, for all that I put you through, I know its not easy to walk in your shoes, you amaze me everyday baby by being so strong and being there for me and for taking on extra weight (stress and worries from me) when I know you have plenty of that on your own. I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings sometimes, I'm sorry that I'm a prick sometimes, I really don't mean it, I guess sometimes I do take my frustrations out on you a bit, which I shouldn't and I need to stop doing that b/c you don't deserve nor need that, especially from me, your boyfriend, who's supposed to help you feel better. But baby, just know, that I HONESTLY AND TRUELY LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. There hasn't been one sec since we've been together that I've stopped loving you or had second thoughts about you, and I never will....I will always love you Erika, and I hope you accept this apology from last night. I'm sorry boo. I LOVE YOU!!!!