It Hurts
So.. I have thrown up so much in the past two days that it really really hurts.. I dunno.. maybe im trying to make up for being on tour and not being able to purge.. (even though I did a couple times) but ever since i have gotten back I weigh myself at least 6 times a day. I wait to eat until later in the day, and then I totally pig out on anything I can get my hands on!! afterwards I feel so guilty and I feel so crappy that I cant help but go and purge. I have done this for the past 4 days that I have been back home. this is extreme and intense!!