Mixed feelings
I'm finally reading Watchmen. Since I'm almost done with the essay, I went to Borders today (after sneaking into H&M to get some new plaid shirts; I can't resist the plaid) and read the first 5 chapters. I'm going to see if I can go again tomorrow, but the schedule's tight. I would have read more today, but I was really hungry. Damn stomach.
So it looks like Milo might have cut his hair short again. And as usual I'm overreacting, because that's all I do these days, because all my neurosis and issues and mixed up in one huge ball and it's all like that final straw and I'm barely holding on by a thread. I can't handle even trivial stuff anymore. Anyway, the hair. I don't know why but I have such an intense emotional connection to hair that I just can't even figure out how to describe it. I've had my hair long my entire life. And I don't mean halfway down your back, long. Waist length long. Long. It's the only way I like having it. I cut it short once when I was a teen to check out what everyone else was going on about and I hated it. My hair is like my security blanket and suddenly it wasn’t there and it felt like part of me had been cut off (which literally, it had been, but anyway). I also tend to not like short hair in general. Especially not in guys (I fit in so well in this society, don't I?). On a purely shallow, glancing at someone walking down the street level, I find it very difficult to be attracted to someone whose hair is shorter than 3 inches. If someone who I wouldn't have found that cute with short hair suddenly grows it a bit longer, their attractiveness shoots up. Conversely, if a guy suddenly decides to get a crew cut, I'll be immediately put off (this happened to me with David Anders, people; I had to struggle to watch him in season 3 of Alias). Once again, this is purely on a shallow level. If I know the person, other factors come in, obviously. Women cutting their hair really short (like guy short) has the same effect. Not that I don't find many guys with short air attractive, but it's more of a survival tactic. It's not like I have much of a choice, do I? It's like colors. I love green. I hate pink. It's the way it is.
Changes in hair actually alter my perception of faces. It's very common for me not to recognize an actor because they changed their hair. Example: Melissa George (Lauren on Alias). She came out in In Treatment on HBO. I think it might have been about 10 episodes, maybe 12. There she was, once a week. In Alias she's a blonde; in In Treatment a brunette. Hair just a tad longer, nor really that different save for the color. You think I recognized her? Not a chance. I had this vague impression that I might have seen her before, but that's it. It wasn't until the last episode that I figured it out, and I'm not saying how, because it sounds really bad. )I would have recognized her earlier if she'd been using the same accent, though. I'm much better at recognizing voices).
So it looks like Milo might have cut his hair short again. And as usual I'm overreacting, because that's all I do these days, because all my neurosis and issues and mixed up in one huge ball and it's all like that final straw and I'm barely holding on by a thread. I can't handle even trivial stuff anymore. Anyway, the hair. I don't know why but I have such an intense emotional connection to hair that I just can't even figure out how to describe it. I've had my hair long my entire life. And I don't mean halfway down your back, long. Waist length long. Long. It's the only way I like having it. I cut it short once when I was a teen to check out what everyone else was going on about and I hated it. My hair is like my security blanket and suddenly it wasn’t there and it felt like part of me had been cut off (which literally, it had been, but anyway). I also tend to not like short hair in general. Especially not in guys (I fit in so well in this society, don't I?). On a purely shallow, glancing at someone walking down the street level, I find it very difficult to be attracted to someone whose hair is shorter than 3 inches. If someone who I wouldn't have found that cute with short hair suddenly grows it a bit longer, their attractiveness shoots up. Conversely, if a guy suddenly decides to get a crew cut, I'll be immediately put off (this happened to me with David Anders, people; I had to struggle to watch him in season 3 of Alias). Once again, this is purely on a shallow level. If I know the person, other factors come in, obviously. Women cutting their hair really short (like guy short) has the same effect. Not that I don't find many guys with short air attractive, but it's more of a survival tactic. It's not like I have much of a choice, do I? It's like colors. I love green. I hate pink. It's the way it is.
Changes in hair actually alter my perception of faces. It's very common for me not to recognize an actor because they changed their hair. Example: Melissa George (Lauren on Alias). She came out in In Treatment on HBO. I think it might have been about 10 episodes, maybe 12. There she was, once a week. In Alias she's a blonde; in In Treatment a brunette. Hair just a tad longer, nor really that different save for the color. You think I recognized her? Not a chance. I had this vague impression that I might have seen her before, but that's it. It wasn't until the last episode that I figured it out, and I'm not saying how, because it sounds really bad. )I would have recognized her earlier if she'd been using the same accent, though. I'm much better at recognizing voices).