i slept all day...i woke with this pain

[guamie_style]

i dont want to waste my time anymore.
ive told myself so many times.
he will never feel the same as i do.
sure, he gives me the affection that i need when we are together.
its so hard to explain how/what i feel right now.
or what ive felt before.
i just want him to love me.
he says he cares.
he says he doesnt want to hurt me.
what we do doesnt make any sense.
just let me know if you want to be with me.
not because we have amazing sex.
i dont want to waste time anymore.
i need to get over my feelings for you.
give a certain someone a chance.
yeah.
its that phase again i go through every month.
i dont know know what to do.

no.. i know what to do. now....