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it's over.
i've feared this point in my life for so long, and now that i've reached it, it seems like nothing. i used to be overcome with intimidation and apprehension when thinking in terms of the future, but now i've only excitement and anticipation. last friday i was driving home from my last exam at 9am. as i pulled out of the senior parking lot and headed down 91, i remember thinking to myself, this is it. this is the end. i turned onto the road of which the name escapes me even though i drove on it every single day this year, and there was an ambulance parked on the right side of the road. i could see the lifeless body of some old woman being rolled on a stretcher by some EMTs. "that's the end," i said out loud, and i laughed at my own naivete and short-sightedness.
this is the beginning. everything up until this point has been a prelude to and preparation for life. up until this point, everything has been pre-decided for me. up until this point, i've been too naive to decide things for myself. and perhaps i still am. we'll find out.
the momentary sadness i felt for the old woman was overcome by a feeling of peace and maybe even a tinge of excitement. remember, death's opposite is birth, not life. life is eternal and therefore has no opposite. death is merely a part of life. i like to think of it as the point when your soul is so overflowing with life that your body can no longer contain it. it could be overflowing with good or bad things. what do you want to fill your soul with? what do you want to fill your life with? we are all dealt a different hand of cards, but how we play them is key. like it or not, it's not what you say, but how you say it; it's not what you do, but your attitude in doing it. congruently, it's how you deal with your circumstances that will make or break your life, not the circumstances themselves. use what wisdom you've been endowed with in this era of your life when you're faced with a decision on how to respond to one of life's blows.
so to all of my fellow 05ers, have a nice life. don't ever forget the words of the bob: "it's life, and life only."
i've feared this point in my life for so long, and now that i've reached it, it seems like nothing. i used to be overcome with intimidation and apprehension when thinking in terms of the future, but now i've only excitement and anticipation. last friday i was driving home from my last exam at 9am. as i pulled out of the senior parking lot and headed down 91, i remember thinking to myself, this is it. this is the end. i turned onto the road of which the name escapes me even though i drove on it every single day this year, and there was an ambulance parked on the right side of the road. i could see the lifeless body of some old woman being rolled on a stretcher by some EMTs. "that's the end," i said out loud, and i laughed at my own naivete and short-sightedness.
this is the beginning. everything up until this point has been a prelude to and preparation for life. up until this point, everything has been pre-decided for me. up until this point, i've been too naive to decide things for myself. and perhaps i still am. we'll find out.
the momentary sadness i felt for the old woman was overcome by a feeling of peace and maybe even a tinge of excitement. remember, death's opposite is birth, not life. life is eternal and therefore has no opposite. death is merely a part of life. i like to think of it as the point when your soul is so overflowing with life that your body can no longer contain it. it could be overflowing with good or bad things. what do you want to fill your soul with? what do you want to fill your life with? we are all dealt a different hand of cards, but how we play them is key. like it or not, it's not what you say, but how you say it; it's not what you do, but your attitude in doing it. congruently, it's how you deal with your circumstances that will make or break your life, not the circumstances themselves. use what wisdom you've been endowed with in this era of your life when you're faced with a decision on how to respond to one of life's blows.
so to all of my fellow 05ers, have a nice life. don't ever forget the words of the bob: "it's life, and life only."