hmm
today was filled with an extreme low followed by an extreme high.
at 6:30 this morning, my dad called to say that they were going to have to put our dog, buster, down today. i was really upset about this. we only found out on tuesday that he had lymph cancer but the vet made it sound like once we gave him this medicine, he would be better than new for a few months before the medicine stopped having an effect and then we'd have to put him down. so two days later, he dies. imagine my surprise and upset. once i adjusted to this news, i then had the horrible task of telling my little sister who is visiting me, about buster. natalie and i handle grief completely differently. natalie just turned her head to the wall and wouldn't talk to me or respond to me. three hours later, after a nap, she was fine. i was still completely miserable. i wish i could handle grief like that sometimes, but in other ways, i think the way i grieve is completely healthy. so yeah, today sucked. all i wanted to do was lay around and watch tv. thank goodness for the america's next top model marathon on mtv today, that was a Godsend. it's going to be so weird going home next friday and buster not being there. my mom went back to work after they put him down and was the first to get home. she said it was really hard to come home and there wasn't anyone crying for her on the otherside of the door. she also said that she keeps hearing things and expects to see him turn the corner any minute now. this is the first pet we've ever lost like this. before, we'd have to give pets away because we had to move again, and we knew who we were giving the pet to and that the pet wouldn't die. i don't know what my family will do now in regards to getting another pet. i thought it would be awhile before we get another one, but i asked natalie about how she felt and she said she wouldn't feel comfortable at the house by herself with a dog there. my mom agreed and said we'd either have to get a security system or another dog. it's just going to be weird for me because the next pet they get, won't really be mine. after i graduate next year, i won't live at home anymore and i really won't have much of a relationship with the new dog. i guess my next dog will be MY dog. that's kind of exciting. but after today, that will definitely be in the back of my mind. hearing my parents crying over the phone was an awful thing to hear. I called annabelle and told her about it and she was a sweetheart and bought me a plant. it's got these red flowers on it that kind of look like they have penises, but they also look like they have female parts, so we named the plant "tranny" for transvestite. Tranny's a nice plant so far.
This evening was the old crow medicine show concert. when i first got the news of buster, i didn't want to go to the concert. i couldn't possibly see how i could go out and enjoy a concert, much less an extremely lively one like expected from them. but after i got myself off the couch and took natalie and me out to get manicures and pedicures, i was feeling a little more ready for the concert. and i am so glad that i went. that was the best concert i've ever been to. o.c.m.s. is a young bluegrass/blues/rock band. it's just...so great. the music was so lively. i was constantly clapping, tapping my toes, patting my leg...i couldn't help it. there were a lot of people who just moved into the aisles and danced...jigs i guess...that's the only way to describe them. and i looked at them and i wished i was dancing with them...it was just so carefree and the music is so fast and free that no one looks stupid dancing to bluegrass. they had this black man who was an awesome clogger get up and dance with the band a few times. o.c.m.s. is awesome because they were discovered in boone by doc watson's daughter. they used to sing outside of boone drug. a lot of their songs are about this area. so them being here was like a homecoming to them and you could tell how excited they were to be there. they have one song called wagon wheel which is probably their most famous and it mentions raleigh a couple times and johnson city, tennessee and when they sang that song we all sang our hearts out and shouted to the cities. it was just such an awesome show. they did two encores...man i'm just on this high from the concert still. i want to go to all of their concerts. bluegrass is just such a beautiful music genre. the way the singers can harmonize their voices is just amazing to me. you have to be such a musician to pull off that harmony. i can do it, but only after listening to their songs several times and making several failed attempts. i could never automatically harmonize with a song. i dunno, i'm just really liking bluegrass music right now. the way the fiddle, banjo, guitar, and bass sound together is magic to me. i guess i get this from my mom, she's always been a huge bluegrass fan and i've inherited it, it looks like. but bring it on, i'm ready for the new fascination.
at 6:30 this morning, my dad called to say that they were going to have to put our dog, buster, down today. i was really upset about this. we only found out on tuesday that he had lymph cancer but the vet made it sound like once we gave him this medicine, he would be better than new for a few months before the medicine stopped having an effect and then we'd have to put him down. so two days later, he dies. imagine my surprise and upset. once i adjusted to this news, i then had the horrible task of telling my little sister who is visiting me, about buster. natalie and i handle grief completely differently. natalie just turned her head to the wall and wouldn't talk to me or respond to me. three hours later, after a nap, she was fine. i was still completely miserable. i wish i could handle grief like that sometimes, but in other ways, i think the way i grieve is completely healthy. so yeah, today sucked. all i wanted to do was lay around and watch tv. thank goodness for the america's next top model marathon on mtv today, that was a Godsend. it's going to be so weird going home next friday and buster not being there. my mom went back to work after they put him down and was the first to get home. she said it was really hard to come home and there wasn't anyone crying for her on the otherside of the door. she also said that she keeps hearing things and expects to see him turn the corner any minute now. this is the first pet we've ever lost like this. before, we'd have to give pets away because we had to move again, and we knew who we were giving the pet to and that the pet wouldn't die. i don't know what my family will do now in regards to getting another pet. i thought it would be awhile before we get another one, but i asked natalie about how she felt and she said she wouldn't feel comfortable at the house by herself with a dog there. my mom agreed and said we'd either have to get a security system or another dog. it's just going to be weird for me because the next pet they get, won't really be mine. after i graduate next year, i won't live at home anymore and i really won't have much of a relationship with the new dog. i guess my next dog will be MY dog. that's kind of exciting. but after today, that will definitely be in the back of my mind. hearing my parents crying over the phone was an awful thing to hear. I called annabelle and told her about it and she was a sweetheart and bought me a plant. it's got these red flowers on it that kind of look like they have penises, but they also look like they have female parts, so we named the plant "tranny" for transvestite. Tranny's a nice plant so far.
This evening was the old crow medicine show concert. when i first got the news of buster, i didn't want to go to the concert. i couldn't possibly see how i could go out and enjoy a concert, much less an extremely lively one like expected from them. but after i got myself off the couch and took natalie and me out to get manicures and pedicures, i was feeling a little more ready for the concert. and i am so glad that i went. that was the best concert i've ever been to. o.c.m.s. is a young bluegrass/blues/rock band. it's just...so great. the music was so lively. i was constantly clapping, tapping my toes, patting my leg...i couldn't help it. there were a lot of people who just moved into the aisles and danced...jigs i guess...that's the only way to describe them. and i looked at them and i wished i was dancing with them...it was just so carefree and the music is so fast and free that no one looks stupid dancing to bluegrass. they had this black man who was an awesome clogger get up and dance with the band a few times. o.c.m.s. is awesome because they were discovered in boone by doc watson's daughter. they used to sing outside of boone drug. a lot of their songs are about this area. so them being here was like a homecoming to them and you could tell how excited they were to be there. they have one song called wagon wheel which is probably their most famous and it mentions raleigh a couple times and johnson city, tennessee and when they sang that song we all sang our hearts out and shouted to the cities. it was just such an awesome show. they did two encores...man i'm just on this high from the concert still. i want to go to all of their concerts. bluegrass is just such a beautiful music genre. the way the singers can harmonize their voices is just amazing to me. you have to be such a musician to pull off that harmony. i can do it, but only after listening to their songs several times and making several failed attempts. i could never automatically harmonize with a song. i dunno, i'm just really liking bluegrass music right now. the way the fiddle, banjo, guitar, and bass sound together is magic to me. i guess i get this from my mom, she's always been a huge bluegrass fan and i've inherited it, it looks like. but bring it on, i'm ready for the new fascination.