Out of Her House, Time to Soul Search
It's been nearly a month since I finally moved out of Jovanghn's house, and I don't intend on coming back anytime soon. Surprisingly, I feel much better than I thought I would. There was just entirely too much drama going on and I just never felt comfortable under the same roof as she was. I guess I just never felt like I was free to be the true person that I am around her. It was just never appreciated, with her self-preservation always trumping any type of collaboration & teamwork.
I think that it is time for me to put stop making Jovanghn such a problem in my life, put her drama to the back, and do some true soul searching in my life. For the first time in a long time, I feel truly at peace to be the person that I want to be, which makes it a great time for me to rediscover my true self and who I want to be in life.
To be truly honest, I have to idea what will be the outcome of "us", but "us" is far from my main priority at this moment. I personally do not want to be affiliated with Jovanghn and her garbage, let alone be hopeful about this marriage anymore. But for now, I will continue to pray over my situation and ask God for guidance. If I am destined to stay in this situation, then so be it. But I understand that things will never be the same if I ever decided to return.
I think that it is time for me to put stop making Jovanghn such a problem in my life, put her drama to the back, and do some true soul searching in my life. For the first time in a long time, I feel truly at peace to be the person that I want to be, which makes it a great time for me to rediscover my true self and who I want to be in life.
To be truly honest, I have to idea what will be the outcome of "us", but "us" is far from my main priority at this moment. I personally do not want to be affiliated with Jovanghn and her garbage, let alone be hopeful about this marriage anymore. But for now, I will continue to pray over my situation and ask God for guidance. If I am destined to stay in this situation, then so be it. But I understand that things will never be the same if I ever decided to return.