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Dont really know what im doing right now. Havent been on this site in apparently 71 weeks. Which happens to be my favorite "lucky" number. Not too much has changed in this time. Lost two apartments, gained a dog, filtered friends. Havent gone anywhere or done anything worth while. Although i did manage a hair salon, that was cool for the 16 weeks i lasted. Apparently i was a grease monkey, haha uptown bitches. Dont know what the hell im doing in life. Im 22 and have no direction still, i watch my friends graduate college and get married, some have kids, and im living at my mothers again! I guess i should get a secretary job or a personal assistant job, but am i capiable of more? Maybe ill be a social worker and help kids out, give them a better chance at growing up then i did. Maybe ill be a cop and bust all the shitty people out there. MAYBE i should go back to school, but i dont want to do it alone, just like moving, i want to go, but dont want to be so far with out somebody to lean on. I could be a coward. I should grow a set, if my 16 year old self saw me today, she would beat the shit out of me, i know it. I dont fit in anywhere i go honestly, i work at a salon, and im a greasemonkey, i hang out with the guys, yet lack the dick, hang out with the girls and im the "tough guy" seriously there are mayyyybe 3 or 4 people i can count on, or trust. People just arnt trust worthy anymore. I applied to 42 places on monster the past 3 days, nothing back...fucking beat, just some modeling shit for bud. fuck it. 25 bucks to wear a tight shirt and have pictures taken...that make me a slut bag? vanilla sky is on, my dog is licking her ass, and my brother is cooking eggs, therefore my house smells like rotten ass. HA! love my life.