Pointless Ramblings...Ignore me
I am known to be an optimist but lately I can find good in everything but me.
I have gained weight. The fertility meds are taking their toll. I am about 1 pound away from slipping into a really old bad habit. I see purging on the horizon. I am getting older and it is starting to scare the hell out of me. What have I done with this life of mine? My one constant dream is yet to be fulfilled and is looking less likely. I am so tired, and I look so awful lately. And I'm sad. I don't think that I have really ever been depressed in life, but I think I am beginning to see.
I really hope this attitude is fleeting. I really do hope that it has been caused by all the injections, blood work, Dr. visits, and money that I seem to be throwing away on something that may never come. When is it time to give up? How will I know when it's time to let it go. I just feel so, so lost.
I wanna sleep for a week and wake up to a new world, a new attitude, and be the optimist that I have always been. But I keep waking up to just...this person that I don't really like.
I have gained weight. The fertility meds are taking their toll. I am about 1 pound away from slipping into a really old bad habit. I see purging on the horizon. I am getting older and it is starting to scare the hell out of me. What have I done with this life of mine? My one constant dream is yet to be fulfilled and is looking less likely. I am so tired, and I look so awful lately. And I'm sad. I don't think that I have really ever been depressed in life, but I think I am beginning to see.
I really hope this attitude is fleeting. I really do hope that it has been caused by all the injections, blood work, Dr. visits, and money that I seem to be throwing away on something that may never come. When is it time to give up? How will I know when it's time to let it go. I just feel so, so lost.
I wanna sleep for a week and wake up to a new world, a new attitude, and be the optimist that I have always been. But I keep waking up to just...this person that I don't really like.