So, its been awhile since I had a real entry so I thought I would take some time out and get some things off my chest. Im tired. Not just sleepy, but exhausted and exasperated, and I just woke up. I have been working 50-60 hours a week. Last week I worked 10.5 hours on my day off and went in at 5:30 am the following day which was suppose to be my other day off. I have had one day off in the last 16 days. I love my job, I really do, and I guess that is why working so much up to this point has not driven me over the breaking point. Work, is not the problem, its all the other stuff. In between working, there is laundry, and cleaning, gardening, bill paying, the gym (which has been sorely neglected), and of course all the responsibilities of being a wife and an infertile woman. I am also trying to "help" my cousin with her wedding. This is where the rant comes in.
Trying to help plan a wedding for the most indecisive person on the planet has become quiet daunting. I didn't work this much for my own wedding. The theme has changed 3 times. The flowers have gone from silk, to real. It has gone from 50 people to 250. The Bride has gone from a size 6 to an 8...causing the zipper on the dress to blow. I truly believe that the only thing that hasn't changed is the groom...heaven help him, he might be next. Ok, so yes, this is what I do for a living but there comes a point where the word "family" becomes a dirty one. Lately, I suppose I just feel taken advantage of. The bride is becoming restless and stressed and while she is coming undone I am suppose to not just make it all better, but make it 3 times better. She has left me with a laundry list of decisions that she just simply can't make. So I make the decision for her, and of course what does she do...she changes her mind. For instance the bridemaid's dresses, (this was an important one, cause I am gonna have to wear this thing) we started out with this one
http://davidsbridal.com/bridesmaids_detail.jsp?stid=2326&prodgroup=138., but that wasn't the right decision on my part, so now 5 weeks before the wedding we are back to the drawing board. Between the bridal shower I have given her, gifts, dresses, shoes, jewelry, etc...I have already spent upwards of $1100.
So today, on my first day off in eons, we are to go the the caterers, buy gifts for the bridesmaids, finalize things with the florist and write out invitations. But, the "bridezilla" just called and stated that she just wants a day off and that she is sure that she can trust me to handle it all today with ease and that if I desperately needed her input to give her a call. I hope she catches me at Hot Topic today searching for her new Bridesmaids dress. ;-P
I have decided that I am going to have a day all my own...I am turning off my cell phone, leaving my house, and doing whatever the hell I feel like today...and since I have oked it with the husband already...I intend to blow a whole bunch of money on me, myself , and the selfish I.
The wedding is set for March 25 (but who knows, that could always change) and on March 26th you will find me having a nice quiet nervous breakdown and gearing up for April 2nd...my trip to Barcelona, the light at the end of the tunnel.