Should I just give up?

Sep 24, 2005 21:21

I posted this on Evboard a while back but I wanted a more captive audience, and one that I trust explicitly. Comment if you feel compelled. I am still struggling with this decision...and frankly it keeps me up at night. I am looking for some solace.

Disclaimer: This may not be the best place to ask for this kind of advice, but I will take whatever I can get. I trust you guys more than most groups out there. This is probably best suited for someone with medical knowledge.

I had a thread before the crash re: my infertility, it was more of a whine. I am now here for advice.

Some Background: I have been actively trying to conceive for a little over 4 years now. I have endometreosis and am a recovering bulemic. I have not purged in over 11 years but bulemia may have some contributing factors to my infertility. I do ovulate, but not at a very high rate. I have had laparoscopic surgery and an HSG that determined that my fallopian tubes are clear. I have taken Clomid(fertility drug) and had visual side effects that made the doctor take me off after a 3 month cycle. I have one inactive ovary and my good ovary is prone to cysts. Yes, my husband has been tested multiple times...he is not our issue.

Ok, so (finally) here is my situation.
I have just taken 6 months off to see if not trying would work. This was also to clear my mind and give me an emotional rest. Next month I am to go back to the fertility specialist. I have a couple of options. The first would be to take self-administered hormone injections through the abdomen daily, this would be to help me ovulate. My next option would be to do an insemination. This, if successful can lead to 1 baby or to multiples, and I mean 4,5,6? babies. Invetro is not an option my Dr. is ready for yet. My last option would be to give up. I ask myself, "Is it time to just resign myself that I will never be a parent?". And yes, I have heard that many people conceive after resigning to the last option. Bear in mind that all of these things come with hefty price tags and are not covered by any health insurance except the latter.

So I guess my question is, "What would you do?". It is very hard to see a clear answer from my standpoint.

BTW...in my last thread everyone was encouraging adoption. I think adoption is a wonderful thing but we have looked into that and they frown on people with my medical history. Please don't let this be your advice, this is rather painful for me.

Thanks so much, any advice would be helpful.

~Melanie
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