Theme... I think
ummm... yesterday was rough, and I thought that i might cry several times, but amazingly I didn't. I think that I am too content with my life. Content to let things stay the same, and content on being a self proclaimed "loner." Granted, I definitely have loner qualities and it isn't like this is a bad thing AT ALL... except for when you are using it as an excuse not to change anything.
I seem to be gravitating toward those who are much less than christian... which I am not sure how I feel about that. It will be a constant struggle, but i think I am up to the task of witnessing to those who aren't exactly ready to listen and those who just want to joke around all the time. I lack a group of Christian friends at this moment... and the ones I have had in the past are either no longer here, 35 minutes away, or somewhere not with me. BUT... I am looking into and "shopping" around for the right ministry to get involved in while I am up here. 808 and IV are the two that I am seriously interested in... all the others are hard core about a type of church or proclaim a denomination... I don't do denomination. I really like being friends with those who aren't Christian... and I know that sounds bad cause I am typing it going... WHAT?!?!?! but honestly... they don't judge you nearly as much as Christians do... even I do this (this isn't a holier than thou speech)... and they are just fun to hang out with... as long as drinking doesn't become an issue and any other illegal activity... at that point I am out... but yeah. I played volleyball tonight with a group of EXTREMELY non-Christian people and had much more fun there then at the ministry meeting I went to. It was good, but I don't know... it wasn't CSF good... or Freedom House Church minister good... but good enough.
Although I had an outstanding time playing volleyball with obvious non-christian types that I perfer to hang out with... my views on God and religion and relationship and morals and life haven't faultered at all... I just think that they are a trip to hang with and much more open and accepting than the christian group... IV wasn't bad... but it helps when you know some insiders also. I really think that this is just something that God is putting here as a link or an opportunity or experience for Him and His glory.
All I know is that God will always have it figured out... now if we could just get the volleyballers to QUIT CUSSING! WOW!
Anyway... 12am volleyball games are fun... nine o'clock church things... pretty good... sleeping until whenever cause my first class is not until 6pm... AMMMMAAAAAAZZZING!
I seem to be gravitating toward those who are much less than christian... which I am not sure how I feel about that. It will be a constant struggle, but i think I am up to the task of witnessing to those who aren't exactly ready to listen and those who just want to joke around all the time. I lack a group of Christian friends at this moment... and the ones I have had in the past are either no longer here, 35 minutes away, or somewhere not with me. BUT... I am looking into and "shopping" around for the right ministry to get involved in while I am up here. 808 and IV are the two that I am seriously interested in... all the others are hard core about a type of church or proclaim a denomination... I don't do denomination. I really like being friends with those who aren't Christian... and I know that sounds bad cause I am typing it going... WHAT?!?!?! but honestly... they don't judge you nearly as much as Christians do... even I do this (this isn't a holier than thou speech)... and they are just fun to hang out with... as long as drinking doesn't become an issue and any other illegal activity... at that point I am out... but yeah. I played volleyball tonight with a group of EXTREMELY non-Christian people and had much more fun there then at the ministry meeting I went to. It was good, but I don't know... it wasn't CSF good... or Freedom House Church minister good... but good enough.
Although I had an outstanding time playing volleyball with obvious non-christian types that I perfer to hang out with... my views on God and religion and relationship and morals and life haven't faultered at all... I just think that they are a trip to hang with and much more open and accepting than the christian group... IV wasn't bad... but it helps when you know some insiders also. I really think that this is just something that God is putting here as a link or an opportunity or experience for Him and His glory.
All I know is that God will always have it figured out... now if we could just get the volleyballers to QUIT CUSSING! WOW!
Anyway... 12am volleyball games are fun... nine o'clock church things... pretty good... sleeping until whenever cause my first class is not until 6pm... AMMMMAAAAAAZZZING!