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I realized that I am kind of sad that I have not been ljing about the different phases I have been going through since arriving. Sure, I've been emailing all about what I have been doing, but I haven't talked much about the different emotions, and the perspective changes that I experience almost every day.
I started out so disconcerted, feeling like nothing I did was really happening...and maybe that isn't how it really felt, but how I remember it feeling.
Then there were 2 weeks where I just wanted to break down everyday, and I hated not being in Maryland. But everyonce in awhile, something really exciting would happen, and I would be excited to be in Spain again.
Now, I still really miss Maryland, but it is different. I want to stay here, there are things I know that I want to learn in classes, and there are places in Spain I would like to see. I still get sad when people don't email me back, or when I realize that everyone is going to have new inside jokes, everyone whose lives I am normally part of, and now I am just outside, and won't know, and that just feels weird. But it will be okay, but I have a feeling the first month of being back in Maryland will be really hard.
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On an unrelated note, my señora keeps suggesting that we never travel, so now I feel like I should try to make some travel plans. The only problem is I don't have this burning desire to travel all around the place, and I don't really have specific people to travel with. I dunno, maybe Marine will want to go with me somewhere this weekend. This weekend is good for travelling, because tuesday is Día de Andalucía and most people (students and teachers alike) are blowing off classes to have a 5 day weekend (since I always have 3 day weekends). So yeah, if you were in Spain, and had nearly 5 days to do whatever you want, what would you do, where would you go?
I started out so disconcerted, feeling like nothing I did was really happening...and maybe that isn't how it really felt, but how I remember it feeling.
Then there were 2 weeks where I just wanted to break down everyday, and I hated not being in Maryland. But everyonce in awhile, something really exciting would happen, and I would be excited to be in Spain again.
Now, I still really miss Maryland, but it is different. I want to stay here, there are things I know that I want to learn in classes, and there are places in Spain I would like to see. I still get sad when people don't email me back, or when I realize that everyone is going to have new inside jokes, everyone whose lives I am normally part of, and now I am just outside, and won't know, and that just feels weird. But it will be okay, but I have a feeling the first month of being back in Maryland will be really hard.
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On an unrelated note, my señora keeps suggesting that we never travel, so now I feel like I should try to make some travel plans. The only problem is I don't have this burning desire to travel all around the place, and I don't really have specific people to travel with. I dunno, maybe Marine will want to go with me somewhere this weekend. This weekend is good for travelling, because tuesday is Día de Andalucía and most people (students and teachers alike) are blowing off classes to have a 5 day weekend (since I always have 3 day weekends). So yeah, if you were in Spain, and had nearly 5 days to do whatever you want, what would you do, where would you go?