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So, this is it livejournal.
Tomorrow morning my parents and I are heading up for NYC (unfortunately Erin can no longer come with us, as Mike is very sick, and she is liable to get it and potentially infect me with stomach flu of death, which would just be horrible).
I am feeling so many things. I know there is excitement somewhere within me, but I am having a lot of trouble finding that feeling. I'm filled much more with anxiety, distress, depression, and fear.
Today was really difficult with packing, because that means I am really leaving. I really am going to be boarding a plane in 42 hours. I really will leave the country and not return until MAY.
Thinking about that really fucks with my mind, because it seems so unreal. I know Spain is going to be amazing, and I am confident that once I am there I will be fine, I will love it, etc. The problem is - right now I can only think about all the possibilities of things that could go wrong.
I am really going to miss living in WC 30 next semester. I really loved living with those girls. At times the girl drama got a little crazy, but overall we had a good semester and had a lot of fun together. I had dinner with Allison earlier in the week, and I just love that girl. She is amazing and the best roommate ever. The rest of my suitemates are off doing other wordly things as well. I hope you all have wonderful times, and you better email me when you get back from your trips and tell me all about them, since I won't be in the suite to hear about the wonderful times had.
I am going to miss Bryon more than anything, I suspect. Considering the fact that I miss him terribly - and it has only been a little over 2 weeks since I last saw him and a little over a week since I last spoke to him. Through the course of our relationship, he became my best friend, and while I miss him terribly as my boyfriend, I likewise miss him as my good friend. He is someone I feel like I could never get enough of, I always wanted more of him - so it's going to be hard being away from him so long. And if you read this, YOU BETTER EMAIL ME or I will whip your behind when I get back *tries to act intimidating*
I am also going to miss my sister; she's amazing and I hope her final semester of grad school is not too stressful; and that she and Mike continue to be happy together. And oh crap, are you going to officialize the engagement while I am gone? Tell me if you do!
Okay - I don't think I can put into words how much I am going to miss everyone, and everything from home. Maybe it will just be like going to college the first time, and I learned to live without my friends from home, and I know how close we still are.
IT WILL BE OKAY.
Tomorrow morning my parents and I are heading up for NYC (unfortunately Erin can no longer come with us, as Mike is very sick, and she is liable to get it and potentially infect me with stomach flu of death, which would just be horrible).
I am feeling so many things. I know there is excitement somewhere within me, but I am having a lot of trouble finding that feeling. I'm filled much more with anxiety, distress, depression, and fear.
Today was really difficult with packing, because that means I am really leaving. I really am going to be boarding a plane in 42 hours. I really will leave the country and not return until MAY.
Thinking about that really fucks with my mind, because it seems so unreal. I know Spain is going to be amazing, and I am confident that once I am there I will be fine, I will love it, etc. The problem is - right now I can only think about all the possibilities of things that could go wrong.
I am really going to miss living in WC 30 next semester. I really loved living with those girls. At times the girl drama got a little crazy, but overall we had a good semester and had a lot of fun together. I had dinner with Allison earlier in the week, and I just love that girl. She is amazing and the best roommate ever. The rest of my suitemates are off doing other wordly things as well. I hope you all have wonderful times, and you better email me when you get back from your trips and tell me all about them, since I won't be in the suite to hear about the wonderful times had.
I am going to miss Bryon more than anything, I suspect. Considering the fact that I miss him terribly - and it has only been a little over 2 weeks since I last saw him and a little over a week since I last spoke to him. Through the course of our relationship, he became my best friend, and while I miss him terribly as my boyfriend, I likewise miss him as my good friend. He is someone I feel like I could never get enough of, I always wanted more of him - so it's going to be hard being away from him so long. And if you read this, YOU BETTER EMAIL ME or I will whip your behind when I get back *tries to act intimidating*
I am also going to miss my sister; she's amazing and I hope her final semester of grad school is not too stressful; and that she and Mike continue to be happy together. And oh crap, are you going to officialize the engagement while I am gone? Tell me if you do!
Okay - I don't think I can put into words how much I am going to miss everyone, and everything from home. Maybe it will just be like going to college the first time, and I learned to live without my friends from home, and I know how close we still are.
IT WILL BE OKAY.