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Exactly two months from now, I'll be on a plane over the Atlantic ocean on my way to the Madrid airport. From there we'll fly to Granada.
I still have not received the things I need to get my visa. It's getting frustrating having to wait. I'm at the point where I have already put too much money into going, so I can't back out now, but part of me really wants to. The closer it gets, the more I want to just stay here where I am comfortable and happy. The part of me that wants me to go, is the part of me that wants a career using Spanish. That part of me is making me go, because I know studying abroad will be the opportunity that really qualifies me to do what I want to do.
School work isn't too bad right now, I'm trying to get a start on my Spanish paper (due the Monday before Thanksgiving), but I rarely am good at starting things ahead of time that I don't really want to do. I guess by that logic, I really want to go to Spain. So I want to go to Spain, I just don't want to leave St. Mary's and all the people associated with St. Mary's.
On a separate note. I have no idea what is going to happen with Thanksgiving this year. It goes like this Hormoz and Arlene = getting a divorce/are separated. Last I heard, Jaleh was not happy with Hormoz. Sean is in the marines. Hormoz is mad at my parents and Uncle Chris for going to Jaleh's party and not telling him. So, basically. Thanksgiving might not happen like it normally does. And we always knew that once we (the kids) started moving away and having families of our own that Thanksgiving wouldn't happen like it used to. It's just I LOVE Thanksgiving. I love the way we celebrate it, and it's definitely not about the holiday itself, but about feasting with the people you love and telling stories and hiking and I don't even know what else, but there is always a good time. It won't be Thanksgiving without any of the 5 from NY or my family. It just won't feel right. If none of the NY people come down, what will my immediate family do? I have a feeling Erin would do something with Mike's family, and so then I would do something with Bryon's - and that just leaves my parents to do what? Thanksgiving with my grandparents? It just wouldn't feel right. I am always with my family on Thanksgiving, and I don't know if I can enjoy Thanksgiving away from them. UGH.
Also, for once - I am not looking forward to the end of the semester. I used to want to get done with my classes and move on and get new classes, but the ending of this semester means that I won't be back at SMCM until next fall semester. That is really scary for me. And yes, I am not particularly overjoyed about all my classes and all the work I have to do, but if it means being here, then I am cool with it.
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I still have not received the things I need to get my visa. It's getting frustrating having to wait. I'm at the point where I have already put too much money into going, so I can't back out now, but part of me really wants to. The closer it gets, the more I want to just stay here where I am comfortable and happy. The part of me that wants me to go, is the part of me that wants a career using Spanish. That part of me is making me go, because I know studying abroad will be the opportunity that really qualifies me to do what I want to do.
School work isn't too bad right now, I'm trying to get a start on my Spanish paper (due the Monday before Thanksgiving), but I rarely am good at starting things ahead of time that I don't really want to do. I guess by that logic, I really want to go to Spain. So I want to go to Spain, I just don't want to leave St. Mary's and all the people associated with St. Mary's.
On a separate note. I have no idea what is going to happen with Thanksgiving this year. It goes like this Hormoz and Arlene = getting a divorce/are separated. Last I heard, Jaleh was not happy with Hormoz. Sean is in the marines. Hormoz is mad at my parents and Uncle Chris for going to Jaleh's party and not telling him. So, basically. Thanksgiving might not happen like it normally does. And we always knew that once we (the kids) started moving away and having families of our own that Thanksgiving wouldn't happen like it used to. It's just I LOVE Thanksgiving. I love the way we celebrate it, and it's definitely not about the holiday itself, but about feasting with the people you love and telling stories and hiking and I don't even know what else, but there is always a good time. It won't be Thanksgiving without any of the 5 from NY or my family. It just won't feel right. If none of the NY people come down, what will my immediate family do? I have a feeling Erin would do something with Mike's family, and so then I would do something with Bryon's - and that just leaves my parents to do what? Thanksgiving with my grandparents? It just wouldn't feel right. I am always with my family on Thanksgiving, and I don't know if I can enjoy Thanksgiving away from them. UGH.
Also, for once - I am not looking forward to the end of the semester. I used to want to get done with my classes and move on and get new classes, but the ending of this semester means that I won't be back at SMCM until next fall semester. That is really scary for me. And yes, I am not particularly overjoyed about all my classes and all the work I have to do, but if it means being here, then I am cool with it.
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